:.` A living dance upon dead mind `.:

*// Infinity and beyond

2010-09-05T13:28:00.005+08:00

".. She thinks about you non-stop and you're all she talks about. When she talks to you, she always have that bright smile and truly looks happy. With one hug, you made her melt and always leave her with butterflies. At the same time, when she's upset you are always the reason. But she refuses to see any flaws in you. No matter how many people try to tell her different, she still believes you are just perfect for her and worth every second of the wait. She's too scared to tell you any of this because she don't want to mess anything up. Cause she simply can't imagine, getting hurt once more .."

And, the person is none other than you, Heartshape o Mine.

*sing I want nobody, nobody but chu

*// Thoughts of the day

2010-05-15T11:00:00.007+08:00

Just a short thought for the day. It applies for those no d*ck ~~monster~~ man. Love is never hurtful nor abusive, if it is then leave. No man will ever lay his hands on the opposite gender, if he does he is not man enough for you (or kick his balls then sodomized with a hot rod). Do take sometime to ponder.

Do know that:

While you scream at your woman, there's a man wishing he could talk softly in her ear

While you humiliate and offend her, there's a man flirting with her and reminding her how wonderful she is

While you hurt your woman, there's a man wishing he could hug her

While you make your women cry, there's a man stealing smiles from her or climb mountains to see her smile

Just love her like you'll die tomorrow and that's something you can never trade with anything else in the world. An 'I love you' may sound cheesy but, what a woman to do but to expect it once a while. We just need assurance at times. One thing that may be forgiveable but never forgotten is betrayal from her partner. I always pray to Allah each day, that I am spared to such torment cause its really disheartening to see my closed one broke in despair mainly of that reason. If you love, love with all you might or never love at all.

xoxo, Sery Danceholic

*// Closer to quarter century

2010-04-27T14:59:00.007+08:00

It seems a thick dust has covered my blog and what a surprise that my birthday is a month away. I would say life has been treating me good with endless love from family, friends and that hearthrob of mine. I must add that I've been receiving wedding/engagement invitations. It's either I am getting old enough or it's just an in-season. For me, I never hesitate to present myself cause it's about time I do so if I want to be treated the same when my time finally comes. Happily or not, I'll be in the quarter century line in a year time. So this year let it be a blast and shower me with surprises which can be in a form of these:

*hints hints

Burberry Nova Satchel

Juicy Couture Velour Bag

Wedges; Coach and Guess

Chanel and M.A.C Beauty Lemmings

The best surprise will be you giving me proposal for a hand in marriage with that little tiffany blue box and a sparkle of gem, every girl dream of.
*dreaming away

Eyecandy.

2010-03-25T21:42:00.003+08:00

I was gasping for breathe at the sight of these babies. Such hardwork is put in and I won't mind having one or two (hints for my birthday) to zhnged up my iPhone. These would definitely unleash the already outstanding gadget cause I know I'll be using this for a long time and why not make it more likeable. The best part, it does have other smartphones casing too for Blackberry and such. Readymade is my only option cause I simply got no time to stick the blings one at a time cause my weekends are best spend with the loved ones. Here's for your viewing pleasure and I know who will be excited to see these. My personal favorites are the Snow White and Chanel-Inspired as pictured in last two images. OMG!

*nudges Aiyda & Watie

Hard to believe isn't it? So are you tempted enough now?

Shorter Days.

2010-03-03T14:07:00.006+08:00

Article abstracted from: Yahoo! News

WASHINGTON (AFP) – The powerful earthquake that shook Chile on Saturday probably shifted the Earth's axis and made days slightly shorter, a NASA scientist said.

Richard Gross, a research scientist at NASA's Jet Propulsion Laboratory in California, calculated that the planet's axis would have shifted by eight centimeters (three inches) during the 8.8 magnitude quake, NASA said in a statement. Earth days are 24 hours long because that's the amount of time it takes the planet to make one full rotation on its axis, so shifting the axis would affect rotation. If, indeed, the planet's axis did shift by eight centimeters during the Chilean quake, days would have shortened by 1.26 microseconds, Gross calculated.

A microsecond is one-millionth of a second, so no need to adjust watches just yet. The Chilean quake shifted the Earth's axis by even more than the 9.1-magnitude temblor off Indonesia that set off the deadly tsunami in Asia in 2004, Gross worked out. That's partly because the faultline responsible for the earthquake in Chile "dips into Earth at a slightly steeper angle than does the fault responsible for the 2004 Sumatran earthquake" and is more effective at moving Earth's mass vertically and shifting the planet's axis.

The 2004 quake in Asia caused the Earth to move by around seven centimeters and chopped an estimated 6.8 microseconds off the length of a day, NASA said.

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I am nonetheless shocked but rather predicted, confused much? I recited daily prayers on my bended knees that I won't live till the moment when 'that day' comes and may with the humblest of heart, me and my loved ones are protected by Allah SWT every single second in every breath they inhale each day. And the reason why I changed drastically and treasure the simplest thing that life got to offer. I never feel this serene in my life after burying all the past hatchet. I hope people could just do the same to end destruction and violence. It pinch my every senses seeing the world in such turmoil. Spread the love, people~

Masha'allah.

Dear Pasha.

2010-03-02T14:15:00.005+08:00

And so, I laid my hands on the VIP tickets exclusive for 125 holders only. Backstage pass will be a good remedy(lucky me, Hady Mirza is the opening act) and that calls for a major camwh*ring session as some of my girls are having their fair share of these awesome affair. After seems like a long wait, my prayer was finally answered and fulfilled. I'm a happy goober~

Ungu, I'm waiting for your arrival...

Contentment.

2010-02-19T08:24:00.006+08:00

After which seems to be a long hiatus, I am back with a little snippets to what I have been up to of late. Just so you know I am just over the moon to being a schoolgirl all over again this May. School fees burnt a hole in my pocket but, thank god I've done early savings for my Bangkok trip which I splurge to my heart content. Definitely I'll return again for more venture cause 3 days was tad too short to my liking. I brood like a little girl as we walked to the departure hall of Suvarnabhumi Airport. The best part of 2010 is that a handful of my loved ones (my brother included) are tying the knot and this is probably the phase I have to go through at this age.

With the joy sentiments aside, I had my fair share of sorrows especially when Momma got admitted due to hypertension which caused my heart thumps and breaks and the same time. I took urgent leave feeling uneasy of her condition and by noon when she nearly fainted I know its time to send her in. As much as NUH is more accessible, I sent her to Alexandra instead after a lesson learnt of my very own experience. I teared in pain silently as she was wheelchaired to the ward. I spent my day and night on consecutive days to be by her side and praises to Allah, she is back on her feet and a watchful diet is essential.

All in all, I am a firm believer that there's always a blessing in disguise for whatever happens within you cause what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger. For whatever he took, he bestowed something better and he never test his messenger more than what we could grasp. I gave a fresh start to the year by giving freed to hatred/anger and warm my heart with love. Speaking of love, the word I often fear has start to sink in my tiny heart. I buried any unpleasant encounters that happened, I never felt so serene in my life and it can never be any better than this. A simplistic but near to perfection. Alhamdulilah.

There are so much more but, here are some to share:

It has been nearly two years my obsession for beauty products lured me and every month I will splurge a thing or two to satisfy that undying lust. The reason why I bought about 7 bottles of Victoria's Secret at the duty-free shop which was mad cheap as compared to the local stores. After much ravings, I also buy my lemming of Dior Extreme Fit Foundation at S$56 for a full package. See the difference in price? I'm still in search of good face product for my ever so sensitive and oily skin prone to breakouts. Makeup Forever and Shu Uemura will be my next bet. Even for skincare, I've been using Mario Badescu for the longest time but I am going for a change to Fancl to see how it goes. Maybe I'll get Philosophy too, well maybe.

Till my next entry, darlings~

Some day, it will come.

2009-12-16T22:49:00.005+08:00

I may not be the biggest fan of hers neither do I despise her in anyway. At least for a fact, she is one honest blogger and the most famous at that. Her daily stats reach its peak with her interesting reads that never fails to excites me. She always have a sharp tongue that may just pierce you through your heart when she starts her displeasure words. But one thing for sure, this video reveals the other side of her and there's always a soft side of a woman no matter how hardy she may seems to be. Being propose by the person you love most and having that once in a lifetime ceremony is every woman's dream. As for me, he don't have to do so in the movie or get on his knees; it's his sincerity and effort that counts. I wish my day will come too where he affirms me that this love is for eternity. Just that.

Check the link out Wendy aka Xiaxue's Proposal:
http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=1&p=8&v=268

On a happy note, a very close friend (both the bride and groom) finally tie the knot. It felt like yesterday it all started and now, they embarks on a new journey in their love story. For that, I can't help to wipe a tear or two for eveything they go through and still going strong. May they both receive all the blessings from Allah for an eternal bliss and lived happily ever after. Insyallah. Have little Adik and Dida soon cause I want to be a proud godmother to your kids. Till your 'sanding' day. *winks

P.S. I promise a proper update soon, that's if when my days are less hectic. =)

Shaken feeling.

2009-11-16T12:49:00.005+08:00

Dear diary,

As I encountered a near-accident tragic early this morning, my brain cells died on me. The only thing I remember was the picture of my Mom who is still sick at the back of my blank mind. I managed to chant silent prayers under my gasping breathe to keep me strong as I need to be there for her. It was a tragic morning and I was meaning to tell you about it, Heartshape when I made an oversea call just to reach you. But, words just can't come out right and that I instantly felt soothe upon hearing your voice. Alhamdulilah, I am still here and appreciate the value of life even more beneath all odds.

On a happier note, a very close kin got hitched. We grew up together and I owe my life to this family for being my caretaker ever since I stepped to this world. I was born in an imperfect picture to begin with but, they were one of the many that painted colors to my black and white life back then. I never missed this for the world but, the only thing I wasn't anticipating was the similar questions that were thrown at me countless times that day. I'm sure you'll get the drift especially when the 'makciks' gather and began chatterings. My biggest nightmare was when they began matchmaking session for me.

I am still learning to understand what so wrong of being 23 and not married? While they persisted for me to tie the knot or the least have that ring on my finger, I on the other hand treat marriage as a lifetime commitment that takes time and great pride in making it not the grandest affair but, the best of my liking being a princess for that day. I never believe in engagement nor splurging unnecessarily for my wedding. I'm a firm believer of what happen next after that and set off for a luxurious honeymoon to our desire.

We are in no hurry to catch a flight, aren't we? So relax lah makciks, kalau nak sponsor takpe jugak~

Kak Atik, you and your family has done so much for me which no words or actions can describe. At least I know if the worse have to happen, I still have you to catch me if I ever fall. I have seen you through your most horrorful nightmare of the first marriage and for everything that you have been through you deserve nothing less than a happiness neverending. I am elated beyond words to see you glowing with joy as he says his vow and your stunning outlook just compliments everything. May this be a lifelong marital bliss. Insyallah.

I wish...

2009-10-29T22:23:00.007+08:00

I wish that we could give it a go, see if we could be something

I wish I was your favourite girl

I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world

I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile

I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style

I wish you couldn’t figure me out but, you always wanna know what I was about

I wish you’d hold my hand when I was upset

I wish you’d never forget the look on my face when we first met

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly cause it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see

I wish that you loved me

I wish that you needed me

I wish that you knew when I said two sugars actually I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break

I wish that without me you’d be spending the rest of your nights awake

I wish that without me you couldn’t eat

I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

I wish... I wish... I wish...

Now, I don't have to wish cause my prayer was answered when you first held my hand and entangled your fingers to mine. But, I still wish that someday I meant so much more to you. So much more that your silence kills me and your absence makes this heart grow fonder. I didn't want to say cause I chose not to be fragile towards you but, I failed miserably. Come home already, I'm so lost without you especially at the worse time of the month.

Edited: One minute I was down and the next, he lift me off the ground; that's why I love you~

xoxo, Your girlfriend

City Square @ Singapore.

2009-10-18T14:34:00.004+08:00

Being in my usual eccentric nature being cooped up in a nutshell, little did I know City Square does exist at the hearts of Singapore. Which is equally odd when its located near Mustafa Centre (our main destination, by the way) no where near the suburban area. Thanks to dearest Dee, I managed to explore that part of this island throughout that impromptu meetup. How 'jakun' can I be. Shopping was not in my itinery but, I ended up buying two pieces of Maxi Dress and she bought three cause the price was too hard to resist. We then continue shopping for her students' graduation after brunching at Burger King. We had a mini haul at Plaza Singapura as to get those Giokids tops. A splendid evening, indeed. Till our next date and next time, we shall wear the Liverpool jersey together~

P.S. Despite the after-work-look, kalau dah jambu tetap jambu no matter what hor! On an unrelated note, congrats on your engagement. *winks

Without you, my life is incomplete.

2009-10-16T21:12:00.008+08:00

To close the curtains of Syawal, it was a must-have finale cause Hari Raya celebration would never be complete without them. Though the numerous change of dates and not having a full clan especially the male counterparts, we still breeze through it with equal amount of fun and laughter. Our tonnes of 'burst shots' being the camera-wh*re that we are. First house was all the way at Bedok then down to the west and back in Serangoon area to call it a day. I never missed to put it an extra effort to cook for this beloved bunch on this occasion. And this year, I chose to go Italian; Beefball Linguine + Spicy Crispy Chicken. My room has always been a jamming venue for them despite being a complete mess. Gosh~

Though the short period, it shall succumbed as Adik managed to joined us for three houses and a dvd session at Jay's till past midnight. I could have sworn I nearly regurgitate out all the food due to overeating. Thank god, it spare me till I reached home. This year we are like a moving rainbow with a myriad of colors and next year, Tiffany Blue I heard? It's not even over but I've already planned what to tailor-made for next year. That's how much I'm anticipating it. This friendship has gone a long a way, we lose some and we gain some. What matters is to leave the past behind and look forward to strengthen our bond. I never regretted being 'kental' during those Anak Melayu days and crosspathed with you beautiful souls.

The glow on my face, feeling blessed. Hope your Syawal is too~

The day I wore pink.

2009-10-12T14:46:00.006+08:00

This year, Syawal brings a whole new meaning in my life. Losing a handful of family members gave more awareness to treasure the people that revolves around me. Life is too short to drown in hatred or pain but, to take it as a learning path everyone have to go through. What does hurts you, will only makes you stronger. I am just thankful to Allah I have a bundle of joy to call my own. Family plays a big role and friends like them makes this rocky road bearable. I had a number of agenda that I turned down in guilt. For that, deepest of apology my dearest ex-Coffee Club, the high schoolmates and a dear girlfriend who invited me to her open house.

On a happier note, we made another successful reunion despite not having the full squad. With them, it often spells fun and laughter. Though we do not meet as often like we do, it's a simple outing like this makes us reminisce those carefree days in ITE. I am just blessed to have crosspathed these wonderful individuals whom see through my ups and downs. We started off the day as early as 10am but, only be on the road at 12pm and get to the last house (which happened to be mine) past midnight. We chilled a far bit and got extremely bloated as every house have homecook food to savour. I'll let the tonnes of pictures walk the talk.

Picture of the day which unleash our inner zanyness:

And like any other year, this is something I look forward to see my BFFs donning in the traditional costume once or twice a year. Despite only have three house to visit, it was not about the quantity of time spent together but, quality of how much we sink in to each other companion. I can be myself when I'm with them even at my worse cause I know they will listen to my every whims and woes. Cry if we have to and always have each other back in times of need. No matter the distance, we are here to stay. There's nothing in this world that can overthrown me and my favorite girls. Snow White loves her Belle and Cinderella. Till we meet again for our usual dinner date~ *hugs and kisses

:.` It's not the quantity of friend you have but, the quality of each friendship `.:

Of food, food, food and croaking.

2009-10-02T23:24:00.007+08:00

This was taken a few days before Syawal as I had my second iftar with the Sengal Clan in conjunction to my favorite girl, Masila return to this tiny island. It was a cosy dinner in Pizza Hut @ Jurong Point. Despite my worn-out look as I came directly from work, nothing dampen my spirit. It was something I looked forward to the whole day that my heart was on a race. After which, we made a short trip to Geylang for a fair share of sweats and dendeng hitching a ride on Adam's car. Then Nuh had to bring us to a sleazy-looking karaoke place but nonetheless, funfilled. The companion was what matters.

We seldom get to have proper chats (beside those on Facebook/MSN) hence, something like this is means to catch up with each other life. I always believe when one's door closed, the other opens cause Allah always have it's blessing in disguise. I did told you, you make it through and nothing more I can do then to keep smiling in joy for you. May the new journey embarked brings a whole new meaning to the word; Love. A word that we often have the love-hate relationship with. Stay happy like this. Love you, darling~

:.` Every step I take, every breathe I make love makes the world revolves`.:

Short escapade.

2009-09-13T02:05:00.006+08:00

It has been ages since I stepped out of my nutshell in Singapore so, I thought its only wise to take a breather of a different air (besides a visit to Johore). I did not hesitate to tagged along the sisters, Yaya and Kak Rini for a short trip to Batam. The main itinery was to collect their 'Hari Raya' clothings but for me, it was more on food indulgence. Sadly, there was too little time yet too many things to be done; the reason why I didn't manage to grab a bite at A&W or packed a box of J.Co donuts to bring home. But I did not regret a single second of it. *winks

We had those typical Indonesian-snack by the road side, tried out the KFC which unbelievably tasted better than what we have here and Es Teler. While they were busy doing some last minute trial and alteration, I walked around in search of a nice headscarfs for Momma and bought three pieces for her. As for me, the only thing I splurged on was that classic manicure and pedicure which comes with a foot reflexology. Just what I needed after my post-ache of wearing 6inches killer heels and my busy working schedule.

While they did a full body massage, I chose a different service all because of my phobia and horror of the first-time experience. Maybe I'm that conservative or plainly uncomfortable. I believed my closest friends should know why. That I shall keep my mouth zipped. Haha~ We then rushed like mad as we were taking the last ferry back home at 21:00 and by the time we left the spa it was already 20:15. Thank god, the taxi driver was 'too fast too furious' (plus good looking too) and we did not negotiate or hesitate to pay the bill of 50K rupiah.

P.S. Last year during Syawal, I dislocated my backbone in a minor accident and now I am recuperating from my limping right leg. I want to get well for Raya, please.

Bitter heart.

2009-09-05T20:41:00.003+08:00

Everytime when the month of Syawal draws closer and joyful songs filled the air, it left me with an extreme ache in the heart. Especially when 'takbir' was on air and as I do the morning prayer it never fails to bring tears in my eyes. The thoughts of my beloved late grannies kept rewinding and replaying at the back of my mind. I had too much memories that is un-erasable through time. And the only regret would be, I wasn't given the time to repay the kindness they brought into my life ever since I was born. Since they left this world for the better, Hari Raya seems incomplete without them for a decade or so. I'm a crybaby and at times I cried myself to sleep when I yearn so much for their presence, at least in my dreams.

Nyai... Yai... You are deeply missed by me.
P.S. I teared while I walked home last night and now, tears are brimming as I penned this down and the reason why this month I've been quite a baby. In the name of love, I hope you understand that its the regular phase in life I have to face time and time again.

Of blessed and blissed.

2009-08-31T19:57:00.005+08:00

Recently, I have been working 5-1/2 days a week to thicken my bank account hopefully to save more for future plannings. As soon as the clock strikes 1pm on Saturday, I rushed home cause I have a date with my good friend; Sara Jaz for a dosage of being a makeup junkie. I learnt different ways to prep my skin knowing how sensitive it is. It can just react crazily over certain products. I learnt about face contouring and blending of several eyeshadows. The colour chart that was given to me was of great help too. And I have a couple of new items, adding to my collection. A positive trait about me is, I am loyal user of those items I am comfortable with. Practise makes perfect so I will be doing more of that on weekend. I shall embark on my desired sideline when I've mastered the skills and that shall start by being her assistant. I doodled alot on that day and it reminds me alot of my Art & Craft days in high school. Thanks for your patience, babe!

At about 630pm while most of my bestfriends were already seated at Rasa Istimewa, I arrived a while later all thanks to her for giving me a ride. As usual food galore during 'iftar' is a must when I'm with them. We had a fair share of the usual seafood and such. Nothing is complete then to sit around and have those usual chatterings. Aidil and Kencet arrived after the 'buka' session as one has to be home while the other was from work. In the midst of indulging the good food, Erlis showed me a video which made my heart melts. Oh Pasha, your voice is as hot as you are! Really appreciate all the efforts to make this happen. I really missed those carefree ITE days when all of us have lesser commitments and more time to spend time lazing around together. Next plan, a trip to Geylang though I very much hate the idea of getting cramp like a can of sardine and getting chase by a 'bapok' like last year. Heh~

P.S. What makes me really happy is that, I'm no longer the only girl when I have this outings. However, it wasn't the full strength and the people missing are Gun and my hot air-stewardess, Masilah. I miss you like crazy even more than words can say!

No es amor.

2009-08-30T23:12:00.001+08:00

Since the day you swept me off my feet, your name engraved in my heart. I bring it everywhere I go and I still miss you even before we bid goodbye. It has been a journey of a lifetime; be it good nor bad. I thanked you for staying by me through all of that. Nothing more to ask from you just to keep this love alive, handle it with care just like a crate of treasure chest. I can be myself when I'm with you and you completes me. So entangle your fingers to mine and promise to stay for eternity. Today is your day and I just prays nothing less than the best for you, me, our family and friends. To many more birthdays together. Amin.

You are a quarter century old - Happy Birthday, Heartshape of Mine~

Song: Bukan Cinta Biasa by Afgan
Thanks for accompanying me to Johore despite your plan to stayhome for study purpose. Most importantly, for awaiting patiently 3 hours or so while I did my hair regime. I planned to surprise you with a lighted-candle on your favourite cake; Tiramisu. But the waiter was a spoil spot when he presented it with a different cake and a plain candle standing on it. Nevertheless, I hope you had a blastful day on my most humble celebration for you. Till our Final Destination date on Wednesday. I'm a happy goober, I hope you are too. *blows a kiss
:.` I love you not for what you are but, what I am when I'm with you `.:

Busy like a bee.

2009-08-19T19:36:00.007+08:00

It seems like forever ever since I last updated this humble blog reason being, I'm too caught up with my new designation at work on weekdays and spend my weekends with the loved ones. But through all that, I will never missed my bestfriend's wedding for anything else in the world. It started off that Friday when we surprised her with a Hen's Party at a hotel along Peninsula Plaza. I'm sure the bride had a moment of her lifetime parading around town doing the most silly things. Unfortunately, I had to rushed for my midnight movie with Heartshape. But at least I know, she had a night to remember. The bunch of Sentosa made me feel I'm part of it all over again. Awww....

On the next day, I decided to take a trip down Potong Pasir CC to see the whole setup of her wedding or probably a dryrun to make myself mentally prepared for taking a huge responsibility to be the emcee for her big day. From the tiffany blue (which happens to be my theme color too)stunning decoration/setup to the massive display of laser, smoke effect and ice-carving I am flabbergusted beyond words. The sound system was boosted up by my bestfriends and their names shall not be disclosed. For once, I wish to get married. Haha! After which, me and Aiyda decided to make up to our disappearance on the previous day. We decided to sleepover her abode and spend the night together.

Sunday begins with such a hectic schedule for me but thankfully, I have Sara to bring my confidence another notch. She has been a helpful girlfriend and declare officially as my personal makeup artiste. Her magical touches gives me an extra oomph to stand on the grandest stage of Watie's life. I teared when she walked down the isle with Dino, its that emotional I tell you. I remembered stuttering a few words and my voice became a little shaky while hosting. Luckily, I and my partner for the day instantly clicked the very first time we met. Telling me whenever my dress started to slips cause its that loose and consoling me with my aching legs. Thanks ah boy! All in all, I'm really honoured to be given this opportunity.

The best part I like most and that extremely moved me was the montage and videos that were playbacking accompanied by the powerful vocals and music by Enigma. The worse part was when I suffered an extreme pain aftermath of wearing a pair of 6" heels but, it was made worthy because it's done for someone close to the heart. I 'hardcore-ly' love you, three koteks~

Once again, have a blissful marital bliss to you both! Have juniors soon be it 12 (as insisted by Dino) or 1, I want to be a godmother to your kids soon. Woohoo! It's a joy to see my Cindrella finally found her happily ever after. *hugs and kisses

Saturday madness.

2009-07-29T11:50:00.007+08:00

Last Saturday was one of the busiest weekend I had. I met Watie to passed the bridesmaids' heels for their fittings then rushed to Teban for my cousin's engagement ceremony. Since I came after 3pm, my wishful thoughts of not following the troupe for the proposal. But, I was wrong when the whole family was awaiting my arrival. Didn't even managed to filled my growling stomach, I have to head out to Sembawang. It was a little hasty so, not many pictures capured. I am a sucker for family gathering, made plans for the upcoming Hari Raya and many others. I love them except the part when they start pestering about marriage. Boo!

Later in the evening, I head down Serangoon to meet Dida for our long awaited RSVP-night as she have extra invites. We then proceeded down to House at Dempsey Hill and meet Dee with the boyfriend. It was a special event hosted by the FM98.7 crews which was more to laidback bar rather than partying the night away. As usual, we had our dosage of non-alcoholic drinks which we held on in fear of getting forfeited if get caught with a 'buffalo'. We had a fair bit of chatting and usual camwh*ring before ending the night at Ming Arcade for a croaking session. That's the only part we cracked a dance or two. As I walked out of the building, I bumped into Aidil... Had a short chat and run for the car. It ended at 6am, what a long day!

P.S. Thanks Heartshape for coming all the way to spoil me and bring me home safe and sound. It feels complete spending my weekends with you. I'm like a happy little girl. *blows a kiss

Anfield in Singapore.

2009-07-28T15:24:00.010+08:00

Note: A special entry to minimized the flooding pictures, this is not even half of what was caught on camera. Thanks to Kak Alynn for the digicam that keep us company through the whole day.

On 26th July 2009; the day I most anticipated, the day I meet the real Reds. As early as 2pm, we had joined the queue at National Stadium to get a good view of the whole match through the East entrance. All were donned in the signature jerseys and some with outrageous costumes. It's really nice to see those official fan clubs from Indonesia and Brunei to braced this once in a lifetime occasion as such. The gate was opened approximately at 3pm and it was an 'amazing race' thereafter. Everyone running up the stairs to their seats for the best viewing pleasure and we are not excluded from the whole ordeal.

It gets a little chaotic and out of hand when a Manchester United fan was sitted in the midst of a pool of Liverpool's diehard fans. I would say, brainless on his part. After the long boo-ing and continuous blasting of the horns, he was ushered out by the security. He then came in with a new Singapore jersey and everything was cool off. Later we started singing the chants and witnessed as the empty stadium began to streamed it with thousands of spectators. It was a little disappointing at first but as the clock strikes 7pm, unexpectedly it was full to the brim on my side and a sell-out at the grandstand.

I was caught in the middle of supporting Singapore and Liverpool at the same time. Afterall, I can't forget my roots. During the first half, they had an outstanding play to hold on to their stand as a home team. But I believe substituting Shahril Ishak and Noh Alam Shah were the worse decision they have made. While the Lions lacks of the key players, the Reds took opportunity to bring in their stars. That only led to a major disaster and I know they'll get trashed real bad which ended with a 5-0 victory to Liverpool, unshockingly. But, I believed just being able to play on the same field with them is like a dream come true. That shall succumbed.

Every cent of the ticket's money was worth it when we managed to witnessed almost the whole squad on the field during second half. The best part was, the Reds played way better than the previous game against Thailand. Banners and such were exhibit and we singing 'Alonso don't go' as he reached the pitch. I really hope they hear out our bidding. The whole team parade through the stadium giving everyone a good glimpse. It's nice to know when Benitez said that it felt like they are playing in their homeground; Anfield. Yup! We made the 12th man in Asia. I could have sworn, I was literally starstrucked.

Mikaeel (Michael Jackson).

2009-07-23T13:46:00.006+08:00

Michael Jackson (MJ) was known as the most loving person in the world. He gave up most of his assets for charity and all his life, he fought for equality of the African Americans, AIDS victims, Against Drug Abuse, Against Abortion, Against Child Labor and secretly channeled his properties for the hungry children of the world. However, he wasn't peace at heart. He always think of himself as a child trapped inside a man's body. Being Peter Pan is all his dream, never to grow up, forever a child. That inspires him to build Neverland - a heaven for children. Children of all ages and races are welcomed to Neverland. MJ had so much love to give.However, he made a mistake which he didn't know of the consequences. He saw the peaceful life his brother, Jermaine (Muhammad Abdul Aziz) had as a Muslim - true, Jermaine faced so much pressure that he moved to Bahrain. In 1989, MJ made a press conference which shocked the world, ".. I have seen the Islam in the life of my brother, I have read the books about Islam. And I'd love to someday feel the calmness and peace of Islam .." Since that, MJ's life was never the same again.He was accused of so many accusations against child molestation. MJ was not someone who can deal with much pressure as he is a 'delicate child'. All the extortion and black mail followed after that. Everything he did was being seen as wrong in the eyes of the Media. All these are to influence his fans to hate MJ. If he is hated, then he would not be influencial anymore. For several years, he stayed in England. Getting motivation from a long time friend, Cat Stevens, who had converted into Islam - named Yusuf Islam. From him, MJ learnt how Yusuf had survived being Muslim. He made friends with a song writer, Zain Bhikha. He who wrote a song titled 'Give thanks to Allah' which he wanted MJ to sing whenever he is ready.

Following his trial, MJ withdrew to Bahrain, where he was the special guest of Sheik Abdullah bin Hamad Al Khalifa, the son of Bahrain’s king. It was then that Michael began to give conversion more “serious thought”. MJ stayed in Bahrain for approximately 3 years. He studied Islam, the prayers and learn to read the Koran (al-Quran). Finally, he came back to Los Angeles and in November 2008 MJ had formally converted to Islam in a ceremony at a close friend’s house in Los Angeles.He perform Haj with the King of Bahrain and son on December 2008.. He had a hidden agenda when he wanted to make a final comeback. He annouced in a press conference on March 2009, "..This will be my final concert. I'll see you all in July.." He planned that during his concert, he would announce that this is the final concert as he wouldn't be performing anymore. He will declare that he is a Muslim and will only sing with Yusuf Islam and Friends. At the end of the concert, he will be singing the song, 'Give Thanks to Allah' with Yusuf Islam. That is the reason why he chose London as his final concert venue instead of the USA. It was because he thought he could escape the USA's extortion, and that he could perform with yusuf Islam who is in England. At 12.30am, 25th June 2009, he hugged his production manager and said, "After reherasing for 2 months, I am finally ready for the concert. ".. Before leaving to sleep, he waved his dancers, "It was a good night everyone. I'll see you all tomorrow .."

The next thing, he was pronouced dead at 2.26am. When 911 was called, there are so much questions asked. It is as if they didn't know who MJ is and where he lived. The questions asked are more towards to delay time. The hospital said the autopsy result can only be obtained after 2 months - very illogical as even the worst African technology could obtain the result in less than 2 weeks. MJ's family members opt for second private autopsy as they started to feel something fishy is going on. The result came out in about 4 days - MJ was drugged with high dosage of anaesthetic - drug that brings about a reversible loss of consciousness, if used to much could stop the heart from beating.Another result which was not aired in the media was, MJ's stomach is empty of this drug, but his blood were filled with it - same case as the death of Marilyn Monroe. The private doctors also found many needle marks, afraid to be forced injections given to MJ on his bed.In CNN Live after a week, Barack Obama was interviewed. And he said, "I love MJ, I grew up listening to his songs. It is a great loss, but rest assured that there is no conspiracy in his death. "Now, why must a President made such statement before the official autopsy result came out? How would he know that there is no conspiracy without the post-mortem result? Seems like someone is afraid of his shadows. MJ was known to the world as a person who is against drug abuse. Why must he be addicted to drug, then? If he wanted to commit suicide, why rehearse for his concert? And why will he want to see his dancers the next day? Enough about his death. I am sure people around the world is not stupid anymore. These supreme power can fool us during the Marilyn Monroe conspiracy, Martin Luther King and Princess Diana. But in this MJ's case, they left too many loopholes for those who think MJ left us with this unfinished studio-recorded song:

MJ's family was about to give him a Muslim burial with the help of The Brotherhood of Islam. But, the CIA showed up at Neverland's door - blackmailed them that if they do so publicly, Katherine (MJ's mother) would be pull off from MJ's 3 children's custody as well as MJ's estates. Instead, they'll hire Debbie Rowe for the purpose, and the court will be in their favour. So much for democracy and fairness. Finally, they agreed to let MJ have a Muslim Burial in Neverland. But in condition, must show to the public a Christian Memorial Service, as to prove to the world that MJ was never a Muslim. So, Staples Centre was just a normal show. That's why the coffin was closed and sealed. MJ was buried days earlier. The Gold Coffin was empty. They were about to bury the Coffin according to Christianity ways in Hollywood - as in their deal with the USA Government. These happened, because the USA is afraid of the rising numbers of Muslims in the world.

- (Sheikh Ha**d) The Brotherhood of Islam Bulletin of Bahrain.

After much speculations; reading this long article and hearing that serene song, I am 99.99% convinced that Allahyarham Mikaeel is afterall a Muslim. May Allah blessed his soulful deeds for willingly sharing his love to the world and be forgiven for the wrongdoings as he is just human afterall. I grew up listening to his song, inspired by his 'zombie video' and he passed a little too soon. When he was alive many didn't give a hoot about him but now, his loss gave a huge impact to the entire world mourning over him and praying for his afterlife. That's how he brings the world together through his music. And politically, I despise their governing on their typical definition of Muslims and what about democracy or respect racial differences? However, let's not touch too much on this sensitive issue. I don't know why but I'm just furious of their senseless cruelty. What say you about this whole complications?

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan bersama orang-orang yang beriman. Inalilah.

Happily ever after.

2009-07-14T01:43:00.003+08:00

Indeed I am a sucker for happy ending especially when that person means a whole lot to me. On 12 July 2009, I attended her wedding reception along with my BFFs, Watie and Aiyda, all the way at Kampung Ubi CC. We never imagined that we got ourselves into this kind of traditional vibes and was taken aback when we saw a handful of girls wore tube-top, spaghetti strap or even low cut dress which is rather inappropriate for such occasion. I wonder to myself where has our culture drown into? Hence, our presence invites unwanted stares but at least, we were donning a right outfit and that shall succumbed from the discomfort. Our main purpose of it all was to witness both the ravishing bride and groom.

As we totally forgotten to bring envelopes for the money, we decided to get her a gift set from Crabtree & Evelyn. We were welcomed with warmth by the bride's mother. My eyes were fixed to the beautiful portrait of them at the entrance and didn't missed the chance to leave our well wishes in her guestbook. I love the whole setup of her wedding which includes the food served. I especially drools over the 'sambal goreng pengantin'. Didn't managed to stay too long nor catch up caused there were massive crowd but, we did snapped a picture or two. As we have other plans for the day, we got changed and headed our own ways.

Probably, I enjoyed that little talk I and Heartshape had while walking aimlessly and pictured beautiful things in my mind. It amazed me how this topic arise and he is the first person I am getting all cheesy on this whole issue. My eyes glowed gleefully which I doubt he realized. Hopefully that day will come for me. Insyallah! For now, I'll just share my utmost joy to their marital bliss. May the knot tied between you both stays eternally and made the love even stronger than ever before; Isnahwati and Zaini.

Weird cravings.

2009-07-13T18:51:00.003+08:00

I remembered we mixed and matched our own nitty gritty to came out with this finger licking dish. It was during a friend's birthday picnic at Pasir Ris Park. Since I had my first bite, I couldn't stop munching away despite the bloated tummy. By the way, that big tupperware was passed around and were shared between four girls. The appetite got even better when I have great eating companion to start with. And here's the end product followed by the secret concoctions. Haha! I am craving for this already when Nannie posted it up in Facebook.

Ingredients:
1 full tupperware of Nasi Kunyit
3 scoops of' 'very spicy' Ayam Masak Merah
3 sticks of home-boiled Fishballs
2 packets of Prawn Crackers
A generous portion of Love and Laughter

Quizzical.

2009-07-10T08:09:00.004+08:00

1) How can she feels the pinch when all that my friend twitter-ed was solely dedicated to this irritating girl at her workplace like as if everything in this world revolves around her?

2) How can a 'rambut celop jamban' (hair dunked in the toilet bowl) feels so vexed when one of my favorite blogger writes about blondes in response to the top blogger's recent entry?

3) How can one offered a meetup for that girly confrontation but, insisted in bringing the opposite gender to settle their scores?

4) How can she be so worried that her 'kepo friends' will be there too; I thought she have lots of friends and that she is so popular in high school or probably I thought wrong?

5) How can a stayhome mother have so much time dissing online or read the same book 73642935 times; prolly, her life is that boring?

6) How can she implicate irrelevant parties and most certainly, innocent into this mayhem that she herself created for years now? It's getting stale already.

7) How can one confessed 'he wasn't the first guy she do it with' and think her dirty laundry is not as filthy as compared to my friend who has been with the same man for 7 years?

8) How can an amateur mother thinks she make a better caretaker than the real mother whom bare the kids for nine months in her womb succumbing to her pain and heartache for a total trainwreck like her?

9) How can she claimed my friend as a female dog when she is the one who is leashing the husband like a dog herself? A picture/icon in your blog speaks a thousand words by itself.

10) How can she be so gullible as to think that this top bloggers will have time to entertain her though, I should give the credit for her great effort?

Tell me, how can? I am totally flabbergusted beyond words by her. Like, seriously!

Unfaithful.

2009-07-06T23:22:00.002+08:00

Being more inclined to Indonesian and English songs, this locally written song strucked me by surprise. It was sang by a talented singer whom gave me goosebumps all over. I first listened to Nana's powerful vocals way back in those 'dikir barat' days and later part, when she entered Singapore Idol but got eliminated in the early stage. With her deep expressions really brings this song to a whole new level. I'm truly impressed!

To me its best dedicated to them who have been heartbroken by that opposite gender. It also a reminder to those whom remains unfaithful cause people tends to take things for granted till they finally lost them. Perhaps that will be too late for regrets. I could have sworn I was close to tears hearing the lyrics with reminisced of the hurtful past but, that just made me stronger and changed my perspective on love. I never hate but thanked them cause they made me better.

I am ubberly blessed to have a bunch of friends who helped me pick up those broken puzzles when I was at the lowest stage of my life. Through that, I realize whom are worth for keepsake and whom were just there in times of joy. And through the long haul of Mr Wrongs, it has finally led me to the one whom I want to spend my life with. Its none other than him. And despite all that, I own the best family to catch me when I fall and giving me their endless attention to my every whim and fancy. Alhamdulilah!

A moment in time.

2009-07-02T00:32:00.008+08:00

This was abstracted from one of the scenes in Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen whereby many of you 'movie enthusiast' would have watched and start raving about therefore, I shall spare that. Cause by now, everyone should know how magnificant the two hours or so filled with action packed. I, on the other hand is rather fascinated by this picture. Despite battling between life and death, Shia LaBeouf and Megan Fox still entwined their fingers with each other. I hope the love I have for Heartshape will be as strong as this and vise versa. Life is too short to live in regrets nor drown in sorrows. Stay down for awhile and get back up! Hence, treasure every minute of your life in case tomorrow never comes. I love you, love.

On a related note on love, it kept me wondering how I first know him with his 'center-parting' hair and popular for his liking of Bobdog; a longest friendship since high school. While I witness him saying his vows and getting solemnized, I can't helped but stifled a tear or two. I hope your love will grow day by day endlessly. I'm just so proud at how much you've grown to be a better man and now, a husband. From a failed past relationship, I'm sure it made you wiser to have finally chosen the right one to spend your lifetime with. May this marital bliss last a lifetime and thereafter, Nadzry and Noi. You are the first to do such event at the mosque, on a Thursday night and may you get all the blessing with the positive nawaitu (motive)! Wickeds is still here to stay and nope, my turn is still a long way to go. *winks

P.S. Perangai chuber ubah eh! Dari dulu sampai sekarang, pakai bedak mesti bercapok. Haha!

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Updated on 05 July 2009.

It has been eons since I last saw the groom; Bobby as well as Nadz and the family. Seeing how Ryan has been growing up made me realize how fast time has flew us by. Prolly, the main reason I love weddings mainly because I never knew who I'll meet with and its always the best time to catch up on life. I thought I was dressup a little inappropriate for the reception at AlMawaddah Mosque however, I was proven wrong. I shall not elaborate on that however, the long journey back home with that family was a joy to me, at least. Nothing beats our usual 'wicked' antics (interrupting on people's picture-perfect) and throw our tantrums when people step on our toes. God! Those were the days. You people will be the first in my invitation list when my time comes, no doubt about that. Fret not!

Picture of the day; Wickedly Wickeds reunite! *winks

xoxo, Sery Danceholic
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:.` Loved by few, hated by many, respected by all `.:

2009-06-28T22:27:00.004+08:00

Little did I know, my mini passion of scrapbooking have earned three orders by interested parties. As much as I do not know how the price range are like, I charged at the most reasonable and affordable rate (lower than the market price) cause I am not an expertise in this. Thank you for believing in my simple touches. I'll do my utmost best to follow closely all your preferred options and do come back for more. And in the midst of it all, perhaps just a sneak peek to my overdue birthday barbeque; a simple affair of family and closest friends. Still awaiting upload from darling Eila's camera. I was extremely elated and I'm sure my expressions speaks louder than words. Nothing more to asked for. Simply blessed!

P.S. Thanks Sara for dropping by my house on Saturday to give me with the MAC Style Warrior Bronzer. I've booked you for a date, remember gorgeous? *squeals with joy

I wish you knew.

2009-06-25T11:59:00.003+08:00

".. Missing someone gets easier every day despite the ache; because even though it's one day further from the last time we last met, it's one day closer to the next time we would .."

Makeup junkie.

2009-06-24T03:11:00.003+08:00

I am blessed to have a friend, Sara whom worked in MAC to inform me of new collections, what's hot off the press and whatnots. I daresay she is one of those Makeup Artist with calibre, in my opinion. And the array of Graphic Garden just made my heart skipped a beat. She said it has been launched in Tangs Orchard but, there are no updates in their official website and this items were on Preorder at Nordstrom (to be shipped on 17 July). Even my other favorite spree organizer, Fatin said the same thing. So which is which? Nevertheless, I am eye-ing especially on the Brush Set and I heard its retailing for S$95. The lipstick and eyeshadow looks just as tempting. Please bless my broken soul! *sobs

Chillaxing.

2009-06-22T22:58:00.005+08:00

What better way to release those stress nerves than to shout our lungs out. I was literally at the top of my voice singing those old school rock with my signature dance moves. And when it comes to the high notes, I was left to suffer alone. Thanks ah! I became hyperactive at the sight of a microphone especially when its in the comfort and behind closed doors of Kak Rynne's abode at Telok Blangah. I met darling Yaya for a meal of our cheesy-sinful indulgence from KFC and proceeded to Marks & Spencer to buy free flow of snacks for our session. Spent our time till dark before heading home. On an unrelated note, I am an official Jinbara fan; a must have in the list when croaking away. Rock never die, babe!

P.S. Pardon me! Feeling cowgirl-in-the-making, straw hat as props only.

Ibiza hippie.

2009-06-21T13:01:00.009+08:00

After a long period of not meeting my beloved twins', we finally did. I met them at about two-ish and proceed with our plan to 'Life's a Beach' at Sentosa. This was organized by the radio station, FM98.7 and I won't miss this for the world to meet my favorite deejays (especially Young and Rozz) and take a picture or two. As a starter, we filled our stomach to satisfy my cravings for Banquet and with that done, we merrily took the Sentosa Express to the Beach Station and change via the tram to the Siloso Beach. Its funny how I bumped into so many familiar faces and had small talks with them. I feel much remembered by the people there and its a nice feeling to know. This place will always be a second home in my tiny heart.

While standing under the hot scorching sun, we signed a partition and see them released a heartstring of balloons with the sponsor name plastered; Kotex. So unglam you may say! Little did I know my favorite local band, Wicked Aura Batucada was there to do an opening act. I swayed to their energetic music (despite the sand poking my feet) and shout my lungs out. And before I realized it, we were muttering continously ".. Kotex Kotex Kotex Kotex .." as appreciation to them. What makes it even better is definitely the companion of them both made all these sweats and 'bacin' scent worthy. Thank god for my Victoria's Secret, its body mist was such a life savior. Definitely handy despite being bulky. *chuckles shyly

From being envy to that lucky chap who won the Blackberry. From voting for the Siloso Hotbods (whereby all the girls were nothing close to being hot) competition. From going floor by floor in search of the 'cashcard topup' machine at the huge carpark. From not having any sense of directions, we followed our heart through the road just to reach our destination. Few hours timespan was never enought yet, thanks Dida for sending me till Admiralty and Dee for the Ben & Jerrys treat. Till we meet again darlings!

To sidetrack a little, here's my new art pieces for your viewing pleasure. Signed, sealed and delivered especially for my future sister-in-law whose birthday just passed and my dear Masila, as momento to bring back Abu Dhabi. I hope she received it on time before her flight.

:.` Good friends get lost together but find their way back home `.:

Seafood fiesta.

2009-06-17T22:49:00.005+08:00

Pictures credits to Erlis; Thanks for uploading, babe!

Since her presence in Singapore (which doesn't come by often), I thought it be nice to organized a gathering with the Sengal Clan, better known as my bestfriends. So I decided on something we are best at doing and that is none other than brunching to good seafood at Newton. We picked a stall which happened to be a Liverpool fan as its owner and to its entirety. I could have sworn we only took a pathetic-can-count-by-finger shots before indulging (or rather be a glutton) ourselves to the feast. Despite that, some were not in the picture; Din being the photographer, Adigun stealing a minute or two to smoke wherelse Kencet and Aidil were the stars, being late as usual. I had massive fun that day!

Despite throating down some medication and suffering a mild chest pain, I breeze through it because of them. As my dear Masila have her own agenda, we sent her to town and after which the night continues for the rest of us at West Cost Park till about 5am. We had even more laughters, insight jokes and reminisced of the good old days. It is definitely rejuvenating to be around this bunch cause they made me feel unusually young and meeting them once in a blue moon is what made it all worthy. Reason being, the fondness is too overwhelming that we can yakked endlessly. The topic on marriage never fails to tickle me all over but, I know my fairytale will have its ending sooner or later. Insyallah.

Next year, two will answer the wedding bells (yeay to that, already looking forward to it) and I wonder who will follow suit. My own prediction will be Din and Erlis. What say you? *winks

:.` A bestfriend gives you faith and revolves to make your world go round `.:

Of life and death.

2009-06-16T00:43:00.005+08:00

Note: This is written to the basic of my knowledge on my religion. Everyone have their own beliefs and such hence, I respect that. Non-compliance to any parties if so, its pun intended.

".. Sesuatu yang diberi nafas hidup, pasti akan dicabut dan mati akhirnya .."
Death has always been my number one fear in life yet, it is a natural phenomena. Subsequently, life after death send shivers to my delicate spine. During one's life, man's deeds shape and mould its spirit for better or worse according to his deeds. When a person dies, the physical body is finished but the spirit remains as they are put to questioned on judgement day, enabling one to answer by all the other senses but, one's mouth. The sermons they gave before the body was buried never fails to give me goosebumps all over. The deceased aura usually gave a hint of goodness or the opposite. Sometimes, the pleasure of life makes one go astray and forget the presence of death until they were thrown a great test from the Almighty.

Just two weeks ago, I followed Yaya darling to have our usual chillaxing session at Kak Rynn's abode. There were a group of her friends there too and particularly someone, I remembered calling 'Abang' but little did I know that second hello was a final goodbye for us. Recalling how healthy he looks as we karaoke happily and suddenly a mishap happened. He was brought to National University Hospital for check up only to diagnosed with last stage of cancer. His condition deteriorates rapidly and now, he is in safe hands of Allah answering to his call. Semoga rohnya dicucuri Rahmat (may his soul rest in peace), all his 'amal ibadah' (good deeds) be accepted by the most powerful and able to withstand 'alam barzakh' (life after death) by all the doa he received. Let's recite Al-Fatehah for the deceased. My condolences goes out to the family and friends. Inalilah.

Solemnisation.

2009-06-12T17:18:00.006+08:00

Note: Pictures credited to Masila.

I first knew this couple while I was carrying my duty at Zoukout two years ago and sneak a dance or two in the midst and met at the dancefloor. The day after, she played a guessing game at my tagboard and perhaps Singapore seems to small when I found out she is my girlfriend's sister in law. Alhamdulilah, their solemnisation was successfully carried out on 11th June. As two souls become one, they are now officially 'halal' as husband and wife. She has always been beautiful but with that outfit and the makeup to die for, she looks excessively stunning. Pictures tell a thousand words but I shall just say one; blissed. I always digs happy ending and this is one of those. May this marital knot last a lifetime and thereafter. Insyallah.

Congrats to you lovebirds, Arin and Nurul~

P.S. Can't wait to see the couple as well as my darling Masila on Sunday. I'm sure you'll look just as gorgeous. Don't steal their limelight okay? I wanna snap pictures with you before you leave to Abu Dhabi again. *sobs

Smitten.

2009-06-11T10:03:00.003+08:00

People whom know me will know how very much I'm deprived of technology knowledge and have not much interest in them; that I am never ashamed to admit. But I started to have heartmelt over Qwerty-keyboard phone and the Blackberry. It started out as love at first sight with Xperia and not long enough, my heart aflutter and changed directions to LG Prada (which I am still prying on). I am never born with a silver spoon in my mouth and to enjoy such luxuries, saving up is what I do best. When I got my delicate eyes fixed on you, I ensure that one day you'll be in my safe hands. Till then, I'll continue having you in my dreams, dear N97.

The dramas.

2009-06-08T23:20:00.006+08:00

If there's a better word to describe obsession, maybe you should know how highly addicted I am to these TV series where I can lie comfortably on my bed for hours with the laptop and a cup of Hershey's hot chocolate as companion, most times through the night. Watching every episodes from season to the other and never once bores me. YouTube is the best element for entertainment and as I lay my hands on the DVD for the whole season of 'Gossip Girl' and 'Secret Diary of a Call Girl', you know how worse it can get. I am already eyeing on the 'Weeds'. If I am ask to name the list, it would be neverending. Watching movies of all sort enable me to express myself better in words and not being reserved on how to show how I truly feels.

Dear Heartshape,

".. I might be a little concern with my hair. I might need comfort, more than my share. I might seem to follow fashion but claim that I don't care. My heart is your bestfriend when it rules my head. I might want to talk alot, don't ask me why. I'll get impatient if you don't reply. I might always search for something wrong I want you to deny. If you love me, just stay close and hold me when I cry. Don't try to understand me, I'm just a girl. I don't seek money but, I want your time cause I give my life for you when you are mine. I hurts me more than I can say when you pull away. But if you love, you should tell me everyday. I might like to take advice but, go my own way and its when I hurt the most, I swear I'm okay. Its always when you least expect, I say I want to stay. It might take just a single kiss to steal my heart away .." - Bachelor Girl

P.S. 'Syurga Cinta' was awesome especially when Awal Ashaari (and that little boy too) is the main actors to the movie. At least, I didn't forget my roots to watch my own Malay productions. Already anticipating for Friday to come and I disappoint myself when I take a glance at the calendar.

xoxo, Sery Danceholic

Surprise, surprise.

2009-06-02T00:08:00.008+08:00

Heartshape was awfully sick and being tad too paranoid over this Swine Flu that has invade Singapore, its best to take immediate action by paying the doctor a visit. It was sweet of him to ask in a panicking manner, if I was feeling ill too since I was out with him the whole of Sunday. Fair enough, I suffered from mild sore throat. Unlike him, he is shivering profusely while we had a short chat on the phone. It got me extremely worried and sent him to bed early. At this point of time, that is the least I can do. I ordered a 'surprise' advance breakfast delivery from Mcdonalds; to energize his empty stomach before he head down to the clinic and filled his Mom craving of hotcakes (hopefully, it reaches on time before she leave for work) since forever but, never had a chance to. As much as it made me smile to do this littlest thing for the person I love, I hope it engraved a smile to you too and take away the misery of being sick for a moment. Get well soon, baby!

Thinking of you, tonight.

2009-06-01T01:33:00.006+08:00

When one's feel as dark as the nightfall, there's nothing as soothing as tuning in to some melodious tempo to soothe one's soul. Tonight I barely catch a wink cause all that kept rewinding and replaying were the picture of you at the back of my mind. I was delighted when you chose to take a longer route with me and that you sent me right to my void deck. But it kept my mind wander a little when unusual silence filled the air. I asked if you are okay. I glanced a look or two. Perhaps giving you that space won't suffocate you. As you pecked my lips while bidding goodbye and I turned my back, tears flow like waterfall. There's a first time to everything and that was a debut of discomfort, to end the day unlike any other day.

I stood by the corridor peeping as you disappeared from my sight. Sat at the staircase and sent a text message followed by another and with no response (assumingly you are fast asleep), I went back home with a heavy heart. I perform my usual prayer but, tonight in wishful hope that your giddy spell and ear irritation subside today so, you'll be working at ease later. You know me too well, I am never good with words but my actions always speak for itself. So with an unrest state of mind, I seek solace to Zee Avi and Yuna whom accompanied me through the night. The best part with their 'too good to be true' voice, it made me weeped even more. I am a baby like that and only you know that trait of mine. You are the true music to my soul.

:.` I'll come and save you even if I have to face the queen `.:

Reunion.

2009-05-30T18:30:00.007+08:00

As promised, my unedited.. uncut blastful weekend. After nearly half a century, a total strength of close to 30 attendees present for our first ever gathering. Organized just for our batch itself whom made my birthday this year, accomplished with happy sentiments. Despite not having the usual full strength due to own commitments, there's more of such gathering that will sure bring us back to memory lane of non-stop laughters and hot gossips. But, there were a fair share of silence about some sob stories. We kick start the drama with warm hugs and those usual hyperactive antics. Some inside joke riddles to reminisce about those carefree ITE days. Not much camwh*ring made as we were more engrossed with talking endlessly like chicken backside. At the end of that night, I could have sworn the majority of us went home with a bad sore throat as momento. Thanks Sheik for a well-planned event.

Goodbyes are the hardest thing to do when all we want was the night never comes too quick. Firman's expression proves it. With those funny poses just to exchange farewell. Gathering at the carpark area overlooking at their own vehicles. We were somehow delighted to see Vella (the one who got into an accident and got his leg amputated) still standing strong with his mightiest willpower. For that, he deserves our salutation. Seeing you walked again and smiling without caring for the world, makes us enable to continue praying for your well-being. I and Mimi shared the same birthday month hence, the emotion runs a little sentimental as we embraced each other. Raba'a being my partner in crime never fails to clicked with me instantly. It seems the topic of those Sunday Reggae Nights at Hard Rock Cafe always linked back to me. We surely do miss those days and missing you guys already.

They seen me through my transition of the past till my present state and calling me a 'beautiful swan' is over-praising, in my opinion. I have always been me and people surrounds me are those whom make me feels beautiful. It blew all those stressful vibes away, undenially. Awaiting for those little plans all year round with these wonderful people, I'm glad they became and still a part of me. For Ariff whom has always been a great pillar for me ever since high school, I hope you brace through this rough patch calmly. I believe Allah always his blessing in diguise. For everything he took away from you, he will give you something better in return. One of the best moment in my life that is worth cherishing. Thank you for giving me a best gift one's can wish for as a birthday gift; a beautiful friendship.

Beware; DBS I-bank.

2009-05-28T12:55:00.005+08:00

Hey darlings of mine,

I received a forwarded email earlier this morning and I thought I should share with my fellow shopaholics especially during this Great Singapore Sale where online shopping may be affected by this phenomena. Just a gentle reminder that there has been a replica DBS I-Banking. Hence, the bank have tighten the IB Device Security Code. If you find anything unusual while logging in, do report to DBS and have the page prinscreent as precautionary measures. Most importantly, stop all transactions as now online scam may get a tad too creative with their ways. Do click on the picture for enlarge view and read the article below. Practise safe shopping, babes!

".. Last night at around 8:20 pm, I tried to log on to DBS internet banking. I clicked on my Favorites and I was brought to the website below. If you are a DBS i-banking user, you will readily notice that this website seems to bedifferent as it is asking you for your DBS iB secure PIN right on the firstpage. Typically, you will only be asked for the DBS iB secure PIN afteryou have successfully keyed in your User ID and Password. In any case, since I did not suspect anything wrong, I keyed in the three numbersrequired. After I have entered the numbers, a new webpage appeared saying that I should wait for the SMS One Time Password (OTP). I waited for a few seconds and none came.That's when I suspected that something was wrong.

So I called up DBS hotline and I was told that the website below is NOT their website. So DBS immediately cancelled my I-banking services and verified that none of my money were transferred. When I used my home computer and my colleague's office computer this morning to log on to DBS again, thankfully I was brought to the right website.I think that either my office computer or DBS' website (or both) had been compromised. In any case, I sent DBS a printscreen copy of the website as well as details of the URL. They said they will investigate. The customer service officer said that there are some cases similar to mine that have been reported to them previously .." - Extracted from an email

Favorite Pastime.

2009-05-26T00:33:00.005+08:00

I supposed I have put my knowledge and special touches of my art classes in high school to a fruitful round-about. I don't know if this is what its called talent but, my idea of this is to find alternative to express myself non-verbally. Obvious as it seems, I am never gifted with a candy tongue or knows how to get my way out by sweet talks hence, I spend my time adding smile to those whom meant so much to me. It started when I was tasked to decorate Eila's birthday giftbox and since then, I got hooked. From an accordian album to customised card. From scrapbooking to door hanger. I had it all in the bag and still working on another project for my girlfriend. That's my secret pastime I enjoyed doing all year round.

When I sourced for the materials, I can't help but got stucked in the shop for hours and I am always alone. I know how I gave misery to those who tagged along with my fickled mind. I wish I am the owner of such shop. Still remember when I was at 'Made with Love' with Umra-jaan; from not planning to spent, we splurged nearly S$100 on embellishments and such. But now, online spree has made it a breeze for me. I believe time, effort and a tinge of surprise element are the most expensive gift that money cannot buy. If you love scrutinizing on people's hardwork, perhaps you should try do this yourself to see if you are that capable. Its not as easy as you think it is, I swear. =)

Of Blast and Blunder.

2009-05-25T18:39:00.006+08:00

Last weekend has been nothing but a wholesome of fun and laughter. Indeed, I've turned a year older and still feel blessed for the best possession I have; a life filled with simplicity and a bundle of joy whom I can call my own. A handful of dinner dates pending for the whole week and thereafter. Perhaps I should kick start on my 'Wicked Sunday' when I stumbled upon Wicked Aura Batucada performing at the hearts of town. I always have this little secret of wanting to be a street busker but, never had a chance to. They were collecting some funds to enable them perform for the prestigious Berklee Percussion Festival at United States. I love their main tagline on the poster, its really catchy. Heartshape decided to be in his support-local-talent mood and purchased their album; Louder than Light. Haha~

".. Help us and we will help you, let the world know that Singapore is not part of China .." - Wicked Aura

On an unrelated note, I am never racist but sometimes it just strikes me that my country has lost its own identity when thousands of different nationalities applied for Permanent Resident here. Especially the majority; China. They disgust me from their unshaved armpit hair to their pungent odour (due to fear of cold water in the morning). From yawning aloud like one retarded apek to those slu*ty women who seeks for Singapore men. From those irritating accents to stuffing food in their mouth like a pig. Its unsightly to start my cheery morning to. They may have this perception that the whole world speaks Mandarin/Dialects like they do and that everything revolves around them with their tiny knowledge of the outside world.

Especially when I go for a session of manicure or buy my usual dose of Sweetalk, a simple instruction like 'express manicure' or 'oreo chocolate with extra pearls' is as good as talking to the wall. I will get a blur expression followed by a reply in Mandarin and when I replied that I don't understand them, they still continue speaking the way they do. They hardly understand a single phrase of English even when its the basic service that they provides. Even in terms of job hunting, there's requirement such as 'fluent in Mandarin to liaise with Mandarin-speaking clients'. In that case they should have Hindi, Indonesian and yadayada as we have clients worldwide and not cater to China alone. Where have equality in the country vanished to? It's totally frustrating beyond words.

My entry is oh-so random; just a medium to vent out my anger~

P.S. Thanks you for the overpouring wishes, may you be blessed too. =)

Cliche.

2009-05-19T01:32:00.005+08:00

".. I've learnt through my lifetime that I can't help but give my heart to the one I love wholeheartedly; no matter how much it hurts on someday, I still stick around and do those littlest things to make that person happy. Cause that smile makes this life worth living for. I am lucky I have someone that makes saying goodbye the hardest thing to do .." - Sery Danceholic

Moment in Life.

2009-05-18T13:04:00.003+08:00

As much as I having the urge to invite this bunch of people to my mini birthday celebration, I did not. Just making it a small event planned by the wonderful family of mine and inviting only a handful of those I thoroughly missed. Fortunately for me, I could have sworn I do not see this coming and that this would be one of the best gift for my birthday. I received a call from Sheik then a nudge from Raba'a about a long awaited reunion with my Outdoor Adventure Club (OAC) aka my friends through rain nor shine in ITE Dover. It was an experience still vivid; marked an unforgettable chapter in my life. Which help develops my inner soul and make me to the person I am today. I never regretted not choosing some crappy courses in Polytechnic and persistent to detour myself at ITE. Or else, I would never come to know these people whom play a huge role in my life. I know we are in for a pocketful of endless laughter and chattering; a massive get-together. OAC gerek gilerrr!

:.` It is the blessing of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them `.:

Online Fraud.

2009-05-15T02:25:00.012+08:00

Updated: 21 May 2009

Note: Personal information has been hidden to protect one's identity.

Click on the pictures to enlarge.

I am nothing but nice when it comes to betrayal. Being a friend whom are equipped with ways to bring down such online scammers, I was willing to helped out resolved this case and not let her happily enjoy the money these innocent buyers painstakingly saved up. Heading to the police station ain't a easy peesy task. I managed to gathered another 6 additional victims by posting an entry in Sgflea. You girls are of great help through this process, thanks for the endless updates and creative ways to fool her. From strangers to bi*ching partners. At least something to let off the steam a little. We'll meetup to lodge the report together as a whole, later in the afternoon. Don't forget all the various documents liable as proof. Let's hunt her workplace at Zouk and perhaps burn her house at Sturdee Road. I'll haunt her till she lies in her deathbed and rot in hell.

Evil people deserve ill intentions for being so ruthless.

I thought the above emails were just that but, my inbox got flooded by more victims and supporters who are willing to go great length to assist. And, I never regretted posting a second entry in Sgflea which allowed me to save a handful innoncent souls who nearly got conned by her. I wasn't surprise she deleted her livejournal account (which I sense she have open another) after that huge hoo-haa we created in her blogshop. I'm nice when I'm nice but, once you fondled with my trigger be ready to get shot with my killer words. Thanks to the girls below for standing upright with me through the whole process and comforting emails. This really keep me preoccupied. The amount of victims increased day by day, to be continued...

Amicell; xoxoz

Clara; c.bargains

Shijie; shijie_lin

Kiang Pin; fate_fantasy89

Elaine; xynosure)

Eileen; tornedandtattered

Nurulia; myprettycrown

Jolene Yeo; jolene_1992

Sylvia; swongwong

Soh Yiling; paperwalls15

Sixteenseven; resoundinglove

Janet Chua; ohmyminniemouse

Jack Tan; mercoilza

Stacy; stacylaw-
Euphoria; yayadaboooom

Nicole; so-nicole

Cinderbellz; polkadotzlover

Mas K; sweetie17

zebraroxx

pushtsocket

blu3dr3amz

ojoucher

p3rfecti0nist4 l0v3

theloveepistle

thesweetcrib

dramagiselle

P.S. To those who love online shopping (like I do), make sure the blogshop has good feedbacks counter and own-registered user. Enquire about the items, ask for real pictures taken by the user and most importantly do a meetup if you are not confident. Get her personal details and if she refused, that's a sign for you to step back and stop all transactions at once. Save yourself from such dreadful incident, darlings~ This pathetic scammer is still on the prowl. She can run but, she can't hide that long from me. *evil laughter

The case is finally solved like all of them said, I worked faster then the police force. After a day of googling around from Facebook to different Livejournals to Blogspot, I managed to consolidate some facts and tracked her down. I still believe I should be a detective or something. Haha~ That aside, I waste no time and head down to Bendemeer Secondary School to meet both the Principal and Vice Principal along with Clara and Kiang Pin. Her parents were contacted immediately and in less than an hour, I received a phone call from Mr Chee (the scammer's father) asking for the bank account number and the amount. A prompt refund was made to all the victims. I pitied her father as he have to go through great length to cover his daughter's misdeeds or else, the case would have been handed over to the court. Who ever says small crime is not a crime? She just messed with a wrong company!

xoxo, Sery Danceholic

2009-05-11T11:42:00.005+08:00

*// Boy, oh boy

Be excited.. Be very excited!
Pussycat Dolls are here again for a stunning live performance.
Doll Domination Tour 2009, 4th June 2009 @ Singapore Indoor Stadium.
Be a part of Doll Domination in Singapore. *winks

Tickets - $148, $128, $98 and $68
(Sistic booking fee applies)

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On an unrelated note, I was as usual doing my online shopping hunt and landed on Tillys spree. When I caught a first glance on this item, I instantly fell head over heels for it. It took my breathe away; Temptress Rose Watch by Ed Hardy. It is tempting indeed. Can I have this for my birthday? Haha.

P.S. And no, Heartshape its not a hint. Lalalalala~

2009-05-08T03:45:00.006+08:00

*// The bottom of my heart

Its never too early for this, right? I hope you like it~

Credits to Sweetmerveilles

A mother's love determines how we love ourselves and others; by the first love that lit a glimpse of hope into one's life, particularly to mine. How much you bound up the wounds and continue to carry me in you for nine months despite all the hardships you encountered, without a single sigh. How much I never trade that kiss when you pecks on my cheeks and affirming me that I am the greatest gift in your life. How much I feels heaven on earth by that embrace which accompanied with the soft grace of your smile. Attributes I hope to own when I become a mother just like you, someday.

I sat on bended knees everyday, closed my eyes and chanted prayers to the Almighty. The one thing I endlessly recite for that one person whom I can't live without. Though a broken and deprived childhood of mine, I never once vent these emotions on her. Though I fumbled an uncountable amount of times, I never once blamed it on her. Though the string of hope sometimes snap, I never once harbor a tinge of hatred on her. For she's a special gift that defines perfection through all the flaws that I hurdled through the years without any fears.

Years flew by us too fast that only now, I was given the time to really connect with you. Sleeping under your armpit on most nights. Girly chats. Grocery shopping as those of retail therapy. For everything you have pull through you always have my standing ovation and a deep respect for your maximum endurance. You always prioritize our happiness before yours and its about right time, you do what truly make you smile. I and brother will always stand side by side to be that ever strong pillar for you to lean on. Now, its no more about us... Its about you, Momma.

For all that you have sacrificed upon me, I can only return you with my unconditional love and a lifetime devotion. From bringing me up while shedding your sweat and tears to making me what I am today, I safely say you are my definition of world's greatest mum; Happy Mother's Day. I do hope you like the DIY gift and my plan for a family gathering to celebrate your day. That's the least I can do to make you live with satisfaction, let you know that love still exist and laughter is the best medicine to all sickness. I love you, infinity times~

xoxo, Your Daughter.

:.` The heart of a mother is a deep abyss of which you will always find forgiveness`.:

2009-04-30T19:40:00.007+08:00

*// Joyous

I can't help but feels happy for two of my close friends (one just got engaged, the other this weekend) whom are embarking a step closer to marital bliss prolly next year. In fact, I have known them for equal amount of years and seen through their tears and fears. Having to face a fair share of unpleasant breakups and now, I am sure for all that there has always been a blessing in disguise. Allah shattered their hearts but that's only make them learn to love the other person better. They were crosspathed only for one reason; to lived happily ever after. For all that rough terrains you have gone through and able to overcome them, this is a well-derserved ending to a new blossomed beginning.

Do you still remember the first time how sparks between you and Adik began? How the case of the ex was strongly connected with him? And how guilty it felt when another good friend of ours had a crush on him and we tried so hard to hide the truth? I became a centre person cause you both were too dear in my heart. You both went through alot in search of true love hence, I never dare to hurt either of you. But beyond all that, happiness is about taking a little risk and that's exactly what we agreed to pursue. Dida darling, now you both are happily engaged and I can't stop reminiscing how you blushed shyly on the first date after you got attached with him. Do you remember? *chuckles loudly

The other is my very own bestfriend, Zaki whom turned to me as a confidante. He called in the middle at the night and waited in my neighbourhood just so he can talked with me. And yes, he too has been my great pair of listening ears whenever I start babbling endlessly. When I got hurt a couple of times even as I curse and swear, he was there to add his fair share to make me feels better. When I cried never once he stopped me from doing so. He said ".. Cry your heart out but after this, no more tears .." From being the booze-king, he channel all those emotions instead to me as a heartpouring remedy. For that, I'm really proud of his transformation and thankful he finally found the one who loves him for him. See you on Sunday~

Last but definitely not least (on another happier note), I never missed wishing my faraway Air-Stewardess a very Happy Boobsday~ Whenever I think about you and how our friendship started, I can't help but smile despite some hiccups we go through along the way upon matter of the hearts. Masilah, I lost some people whom I used to dote on like treasure chest (I'm sure you know who) but you have always been there for me. Enduring my endless whippings during those tough times. I never regretted losing them cause they led me to you. I have said this before and I'm gonna say it again, you were once my life savior when I was at the lowest and for that I have a lifetime friendship for you, that's a unbreakable vow I've made.
Come home soon, darling~

:.` True happiness consists not in the multitude of friends, but in their worth and choice`.:

2009-04-22T13:49:00.007+08:00

*// In love with two

Just the other day, I get so exhilirated when I see him and shun you away instantly. Perhaps I shall reveal the truth of how I very much betrayed you for another. His deadly smile and visible dimples are to die for. Matter of the heart is so unpredictable, right? Today you were head over heels with someone and in a blink of an eye, everything may seems vague again. What a girl to do when she's in love with two. I am sorry this has to befalls us and he just have to be the third party in this love triangle. Love hurts, they say. I'll promise to be equal in my admiration to you both. I won't be selfish so I'm sharing his pictures for your eyes to feast. Girls, don't drool aye!

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I may not be those who stay-in to watch Malaysia channels cause I am more into Indonesian non-irritating sitcoms and especially in YouTube most times. But, there's no denying that Awal Ashaari is well on his way to solidifying his status in the industry after catching my attention. I have a fetish for a guy whom is funny and able to be a great host (e.g. Aznil Nawawi, Najib Ali) and being young is a significant plus point. It's hard to miss him on weekends at Sensasi. In addition I like his distinctive short, spiky hair which adds more flavor to his already saucy appearance. Now, I have him gazing at me whenever I'm on my laptop screen. Hottt! Simply heartmelting~ What say you?

Of course, I'll never trade my Heartshape for anything in the world. I love him to bits lor~

2009-04-16T11:48:00.012+08:00

*// Emotions

I have been sleeping late and waking up to an early morning; the cycle still continues. Lately, tears brimmed at the tip of my eyes when awaken. I know deep in me how very much I missed my late grandparents (on the maternal side). Ever since their departure to a place more serene, a hole in the heart remains visible. Its like a missing piece to the puzzle of my life. I grew up being closely drawn to them as life isn't that perfect from the naked eyes. Doing my daily prayers and seeking solace to the Almighty above, he grants a wish of mine. He gifted me with the presence of them in my dreams these past two nights hence, I've been more excited to turn in for an emotional slumber. Forever, I owe my entire life to them cause I wasn't given enough time to repay their sacrifice dedicating their endless love and care through their living days. Since then I became a shoulder to cry and a pair of listening ears to my aunts perhaps, that shall succumb and definitely a fulfilling sentiments.

You are deeply missed by me, my Nyai and Yai. *sobs

And that led me to the thoughts of my beloved mother. I tend to questioned myself, what would I do without her? She constantly shares the pain about her swollen leg hence, she can barely walk. Time do flies and I realize age is catching up on her. Since then, I took over her position of waking up at 5am to settle the household chores. I never sigh when asked to massage her leg in the midst of the night or take a cup of water to quench her thirst while already asleep. Now, I spend most nights sharing the bed with her. Her reason was to cherish my presence while I am not married and mine is to be her companion as much as I possibly can. For everything that we have been through, it turned me to a wiser person and that she deserves a blissful life ahead. You are the most crucial person to witness me donning my wedding gown and walk down the isle with that man, I wish to spend my whole life with. That has been my silent prayer for the person who matters most.

I don't say this often but I love you more than anything, Mama.

On an unrelated note, here's my shoutout for my dear girlfriend who turns a year older. I know you already possessed that happy ending. May you grab hold of it tightly and keep believing its existence today, tomorrow and thereafter. When things go astray or if ever you gonna fall, you know I am always here to catch you before you hit the ground. A friendship is here to stay despite the distance and our commitments but, I am always a phone call away... Always here for you. Have a fabulous celebration filled with so much love by your loved ones and since you turned 23, it will be yours for the next 23 days. This was taken last year when we had a humble celebration; overcoming our individual fears. What about this year, darling? *winks

HAPPY BOOBSDAY NURUL AIN~

:.` Life spares no time to wake up in the morning with regrets `.:

2009-04-15T02:42:00.007+08:00

*// Oh-so juicy

Love me or hate me, its still an obsession and that goes without saying. Yet another one of those random entry. I am turning two-years-before making the quarter century mark next month. While one will list down a long haul of wishlist, I chose to start drooling over things that literally melts my heart. Screw Coach, Louis Vuitton, Gucci (yada yada... just for the moment that is) as they become case of the ex. I am posting these picture as a 'note to self'. I earn what I harvest over my own savings and by far, I'm a proud owner of 5 Juicy Couture essential eye candies. Getting them direct from States are more worthy than those ridiculous marked up price in the local boutique. Since then I can never let go of the velour handbag I carried almost everyday! I can't wait to burst my wardrobe with their pretty trinkets and arm candies.

Prolly, the only thing on earth you'll see me turned all girlish. Haha!

P.S. And yes, I was ubberly sad when Singapore opens its boutique at Takashimaya. My close friends feel my agony and they got dragged at KL to Pavillion for the two-storey store. That means in years to come, the branding will be a common scene here. At least for now, I can enjoy and be contented being the not-so-many people who owns a Juicy Couture.

:.` For good girls who like stuffs `.:

2009-04-12T21:58:00.003+08:00

*// Skins.

I have been suffering from insomnia and it worsen day by day. On a particular night, I was lucky to strike some 'fart-and-shit' conversation (which only we both can comprehend) at MSN with Sabrina. My eyes were still glued to the laptop as early as 4am. Being the good friend that she is, I was introduced to Skins - a long sequel I get to feast on in YouTube and got highly addicted to it. My fingers refused to press the 'stop' button that carried on up till today. Thanks for giving me the best remedy to accompany me through the numerous sleepless nights while everyone were in their dreamland. Nudge me for more of such sinful flicks! Good things are meant to be shared, remember? *winks

:.` I'm just a little girl lost in the moment; Life is a maze and love is a riddle `.:

2009-04-06T23:58:00.005+08:00

*// Goosebumps

The 'misses' might have been too strong and fate decided to crosspath us in the most unexpected way. While in the midst of looking for the arrival hall at Changi Airport (literally being lost alone) to fetch Momma from her Shanghai flight, there you were at the departure floor making your way back to your work ground. I took multiple glances to ensure it was you cause I didn't expect you were back. Even so, I was still hesitating while tapping your shoulder. But, as we hugged for a bit, I then realize it wasn't some kind of a dream. My expression was a giveaway at how flabbergusted I was, right darling? Take care while being abroad and I'll hope to have our meetup when you have your touch down again. This may sounds crazy but.....

I love you Siti Masilah~ *chuckles

xoxo

2009-04-04T12:51:00.003+08:00

*// A shopaholic fever

Upon finishing my fair share of Confessions of the Shopaholic and still having a fever about it, I decided to go down memory lane of my obsessions over certain labels. Recently, someone questioned me why I go googoo gaga over them? And why I never once impress with Louis Vuitton or Gucci and whatnots? To each his own, I'll replied. Seeing massive productions of replica for brands like above, just lowered the value of the brands. Most importantly, I hate having to splurge a huge amount of moolahs (most girls will say its a worthy investment) only to spot the same bag worn by others while in the public. I am like a queen; there's only one cause to me, two or more is a crowd. It need to be worth every penny.

What's worse having to see replicas at Petaling Street and sometimes I wonder, how can such a place be called a tourist attraction. I remembered asking price for a particular Louis Vuitton out of curiousity and it shaken me when the seller said its RM740. I can get myself an authentic Juicy Couture bag or a couple of Dior makeups with such steep price, for God sake. Money don't comes easy so, I usually save up and sometimes for months to get one. I do own inspired Chanel bag just as long its clean without the brand or logo plastered cause I know, I well can't afford it. My dream was to own a complete set of Tiffany & Co since I was a little girl. Amazingly, I teared at the sight of the replicas that were on sale shop after shop. How could they do this~!#$%^

I may not be the biggest Coach's fan ever existed but, still their arm candies on certain collections never fails to tempt me. Especially the Tattersall design and Penelope edition. Now comes the Cashin' Carry inspired by Bonnie Cashin'. When I made a decision to purchase a designer good, its not about possessing it as materialistic value. How can one hesitate the authenticity of Victoria's Secret bags? Its of affordable price for anyone to even think of duplicating them. My current obsession will be Yves Saint Laurent. Honestly, I don't own tonnes of branded arm candies in fact, mine can be count by fingers but what matters to me more is the quality and not quantity. Girls will always be girls; they never have enough of shopping. If only I have the drive like Rebecca Bloomwood~

Have a splendid weekend, readers of mine!

2009-04-03T19:02:00.004+08:00

*// True friends, definitely.

My face was literally red (without even have to use the blusher) due to the sunburn the day before while picnic-ing at East Coast especially when the weather was not of great help either. As early as 12pm under the scorching hot sun, I go onboard the MRT like a loner all the way to Pasir Ris for a birthday bash. Nothing beats the lethargic feeling upon seeing the smiling faces of my beloved friends. Coincidently as I reached Nani's void deck to help her out, I realized she stays the same block as my aunt. Haha! Only later when we were proceeding to Pasir Ris Park, the sky turns cloudy and as we settled at a sheltered area it started to rain cats and dogs. Thankfully it lasted shortly. We started munching and chatting endlessly. Spread the beach mats on the ground and just be comfortable with the Magnum ice-cream as dessert.

What better way to spend great time like this which doesn't comes often. Laughing was the best remedy to perks up my weekend. Acchan was unaware of the plans that were lined up for him and started being an irritant. He endlessly pestered me as to where darling Efni was bringing him later that night. To the extend of lying to me but, I managed to still conceal the secret. Phew~ Then, there was this rental of S$14 per hour for a go-kart thingy which you literally have to cycle. If only time was by my side, I would love to join in the hardship of pedalling it. I am always easily heart-melted by kids cute antics and Athirah was not exceptional. But, I chose not to get hold of her in fear I might just 'romos-romos' her face violently. Oops!

HAPPY BABESDAY YOU BOTH, ACCHAN & NANI.

On another backdated short outing with honey Yaya to Suntec City yet, again. This time its a JobsDB career fair which was rather disappointing but, I manage to find a better job search engine. Jobs Central has been a great life saviour. On another happier note, this friend of mine makes a great partner in crime from satisfying my cravings over food to a non-stop camwhoring session. Now, seeing the Auntie's Anne pretzels is making me drool already. The caramel dipping is the bomb, mind you! We sat by the Fountain of Wealth chit chatting and tuning in to the iPod touch while singing out loud in our own rendition of each songs. And, when I heard the Barney song we end up hugging each other at the end of it. How cute of us, really~ I can be anything I wanna be with my set of wonderful friends.

The beauty of Allah's creation never fails to baffled me. We (and a bunch of others) stood there amazed by the gradual sunset sky. I was simply awed. Subhanallah!

:.` When you are knocked down, come back up again `.:

2009-03-30T17:53:00.008+08:00

*// Over the moon

I am head over heels with Keri Hilson and unexceptionally amazing-composition-of-song when its a combination of my other two favourites; Neyo and Kanye West. I was helpless and resort to changing my blog's song to this. Well, I guess its about ripe time since it has been ages I trigger with Imeem. I am literally knocked down by 'love' despite being the utmost cliche word yet, I thank Allah he instilled so much love in my tiny heart and that overshadow any hatred. Being in a state of calamity. What's more to ask for? I love my life mainly because of whom revolves around my circle of companionhsip. Period~

".. I never thought I’d be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I’m a race but I already won first place .."

".. I never thought I’d fall for you as hard as I did
You got me thinkin bout our life our house and kids
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down .."

".. Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will you bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh cause I don’t wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don’t wanna fall back on my face again .."

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I am contemplating between taking up both AutoCAD 2009 Essentials and Mandarin Conversational courses but, wonder which I shall accomplish first? Another decision making to be concluded. Making every second worthwhile! Gosh~

:` Scared to answer love's call but if hits, I make it worth the fall `.:

2009-03-25T22:47:00.004+08:00

*// Confessions

Weekends has been nothing but about hanging loose at any Cathay cineplex (don't ask me why but its our personal preference), a midnight dosage of our chosen movie and a long ride in the Night Rider all the way back to my vicinity. However our plan differs this week cause we decided to head down East Coast Park after the 01:40AM movie as our initial plan was to go picnic the next morning. Hence, I am able to do stargazing with him again. When next week comes, he becomes my victim for yet, another chick flick - Confessions of a Shopaholic but, that shall be at JB. I can't wait to lay my hands on the dismissible Sophie Kinsella's and be a bookworm all over again. Perhaps its just a female psyche. Oh well, at least the title says it all! But, above all that I still have to go through a nerve-wrecking interview today. I'll need all the luck I can get so, I can start pursuing my resolutions for 2009. Not just for me but, for us!

Insyallah.

:.` All she ever wanted is a little credit`.:

2009-03-22T16:55:00.006+08:00

*// Ibiza out

Note: Credits to my two koteks, Lisa and Aiyda for the pictures contribution.

After attending Arshad's wedding, I scurry in a hurry for yet another short escapade to Pangkor/KL (the third time travelling just this year itself) for some breathtaking indulgence, being away from the hustle and bustle of this tiny city. Despite the trip was not something I recalled when I was there prolly a decade back, there were still reasons that make it all worthwhile. This is the first ever trip with my BFFs; the main reason that got me extremely excited. The boat ride made me screeched at the top of my voice. Brunching at A&W like the glutton that we are. Getting ourselves each an arm candy at the Paris Hilton boutique at the Pavilion. When there's things that plastered a smile on my face, definitely some are that ugly which is pointless to keep these grudges. So here I am spilling the beans.

What if you were given a choice to choose your accomodation from RM153 hotel with big, disgustingly stained and fragile 70 years old bed over RM50 apartment with standard bed, a scenic view balcony and better hygiene? I definitely prioritize quality over quantity! All the food places were extreme flies-infested which takes the appetite out of me. I was literally grossed out by the sight of it that I end up only having a Ramly burger, being my life savior. I have never been choosy over where or what to eat but, cleanliness is something I'll never compromise. To add salt to the wound, the 'red light' chose to come at a wrong time that I have to seized any water sports especially snorkelling and soaking myself in the clear water.

Another thing I wish to grumble about is the failed system on the transportation side. Unpleasant start while onboard the bus to and fro our destination. How can there be an extra passenger boarding when all the seats are occupied? And due to their miscommunications or whatsoever, we (being the biggest group of 13) were put to the blame even when we have purchased the tickets way beforehand. While at Puduraya, I am amazed by how well-driven they were to sell their product but being forceful and annoying is another issue. A pack of sc*mbags got a middle finger up by me for being ruthlessly rude. First by interrupting my conversation right in my face and the other for calling us 'proud Singaporeans'. And yes, I am a proud Singaporean if you must know! Thanks for making me realize that fact.

But, beneath all that I still went home sweet home as a contented girl and could have sworn I appreciate this tiny city so much more after the whole incident. Bestfriends doesn's always have to meet everyday or chat as often as they can due to our own commitments but, keeping vivid thoughts about them every single day is what made our friendship so true. They are whom I can rely on when my world comes crumbling down. They are whom that fought for me so justice prevailed. They are whom who foresee my flaws and all, still being here with me. They are whom I called my own. I know deep inside we are in this for a long run. Thank you for being the bestest I can ever wished for. *blows a kiss

I love you Bietches; Watie Cinderella and Aiyda Belle!

And to the people below, thanks for being such great organizers and giving me a pleasureable hospitality throughout the trip. For accommodating and making everything fuss-free. Such free and easy itinery often bound to have minor glitches and hiccups but, overall no regrets. What matters is, great companion comes with greater fun. I won't mind having another holiday with my 'extended' family again. Bangkok; home of the shopping paradise next? We'll see about that!

:.` True friends don't judge, they love you and your imprefections perfectly `.:

2009-03-19T12:44:00.006+08:00

*// Pastamania madness

It has always been about fair and more fair. And in the topic of fairs, it always struck me that the place will be unbelievably congested with human traffic. For crying out loud, I still made my way to the Career and Education Fair to survey on school and applied for several job positions with my honey, Yaya. We strolled through in almost every corners of the exhibits to ensure we fully made good use of the time spend there. Weirdly, I was donning myself with a pencil skirt only to be sitted comfortably on the floor to filled up some forms. Haha!

Then, we searched high and low for a place to fill our growling stomach after all the hoo-haa only to settled for yet another Pastamania. I grabbed a plate of Beefball Pasta while she took the Bacon Carbonara. It's been long enough since we craved for it and good enough since its already 'halal', we took no hesitations to place the order. Then had a short catchup session with darling, Efni and her beau and end up laughing hysterically and talking-like-shouting as our usual antics. Being fleshy is beautiful and so are the both of you! Right, gorgeous?

P.S. Catch up with a game of Monopoly again, soon as its been long since we last plan for it. *pouts

:.` Life without passion is unforgiveable `.:

2009-03-18T19:56:00.006+08:00

*//Still smiling.

Being in the madness of the IT Fair for approximately 6 hours just to accompany Heartshape to lay his hands on the Starhub package which includes a 32" television. From that long queue just to get our number to waiting for order confirmation. From collecting all his gadgets to settling the payment. It was mind boggling and leg-turn-jelly, I tell you. Not just that to endure, our number was skipped a fair bit that made me frantic. The hormonal changes as the 'red light' making its way was of no help either. We were on the midst to give up and despite feeling ridiculously impatient, I pulled through all this hassle because I love you. After starving ourselves the whole day, we managed to get a quick bite only at 7pm before walking like a Charlie Chaplin all the way to CHIJMES for our dose of football fanatic; Liverpool vs Manchester United.

With a seven-point lead and a game in hand, most are ready to concede that the Premiership Trophy will be staying in Old Trafford for at least one more year but, being a fan of Liverpool I beg to differ. Especially after they defeated Manchester United 4-1 at their home ground for the first time since 2001 and that lead me to believe that this is Liverpool’s glorious year. And that particular penalty goal was uncalled for cause it was obvious that Reina was just defending his position as a goalkeeper. Thank god! Shortly after, the terrible play from Vidic on the long ball gave Torres an opportunity not to be wasted for an equalizer. It just got better after that as they won big that night! There were a large crowd gathered to witness the game and I could have sworn, I cursed at the opposition supporters as they raved and boast. See who's smiling now?

As the clouds turned grey and little droplets began to make its apperance, its about time we rushed along before the downpour gets heavier. Made our way to The Cathay for the midnight movie; Dragonball. I simply love Fridays and Saturdays reason being, I get to have him the whole day all by myself and do things we both enjoyed doing together. Like I always said, I am greedy like that! Thank you for always being the way you are and accepting me the way I am. These few months has been nothing but, pure blissed. It may not always be like this and at times may get a little ugly but, I hope you'll look back to ponder on all these beautiful things we have gone through and carve a smile back on your face. Still as strong as ever, I love you!

:.` Always have faith in what you really are `.:

2009-03-05T03:17:00.003+08:00

*// The lucky girl that I am

Dear Jason,

I am sorry that I wasn't as excited as I expected it to be (nothing compared to Riri's concert) but, still impatiently anticipating for my once in a lifetime opportunity to meet you and basked my ears with your melodious tune. I'll hum and dance a thing or two; or shout my lungs out if I have to. I heard some friends go to the extent of travelling an extra distance to Kuala Lumpur to catch you live as the selling of your tickets were way too crazy. But, thank God I get to lay my hands on them with good viewing pleasure before it get wiped out fast. Your song 'Lucky' has been my inspiration as it spoke a well-versed lyrics to my present love story. Be honoured that it will be in the top list choice of song for my big day. And, I am definitely lucky enough that I am going with that one person I wish to spend my life with. As much as I love your music, I love my Heartshape just as much. Please give a smackdown show for me and all your fans that will be cheering you on later. Welcome to Singapore!

xoxo

2009-02-26T21:33:00.004+08:00

*// Rainbow above my head

While you were abroad even for a day, a million reminders sprung by this congested celebral. Despite the little significant things; my mind associates with the portrait of you everywhere. When I can't turn left, I always check to see how long the street is. If it isn't very long I go the wrong way, just out of habit. I run red lights even though I'm no longer need to impress you in anyway and I shake with excitement when I smell the scent of your perfume from miles away. I've spent more time waiting for your name to appear in my inbox than you've spent oogling on your PSP.

I wish I could videotape myself typing this as witness how I get too teary. I wonder how I have this subtle feeling without sparing my heart a breathing space. I constantly counts the hours and minutes to the time when I can fall back in your embrace. I even know when that day is and I am counting down. I miss waking up everyday to the sound of your voice. I didn't even realize how much I missed you until just now. Just now, while trying to put into words what I think about when I think about you. I am doing this to preoccupied myself till we are eye to eye again. If this is not love, I don't know what is!

Change The cover note of dis tag ...Here's a chance to see how well you really know your husband/boyfriend/lover. Cut, paste and fill in the answers, then shoot, you know what to do. The real challenge is to send it to your partner to see how right you really are. (Credits to Anna; Happy Phuket-ing, babe!)

1. He's sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?

- Football is like his other religion; either local or Liverpool's matches.

2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?

- I couldn't recall eating salad with him but, once we ate potato with dressing and its finger licking good.

3. What's one food he doesn't like?

- He'll gobble down anything he set his eyes upon but, not squid perhaps.

4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?

- He changes his menu like a girl changes her clothes. Haha!

5. Where did he go to high school?

- Jurongville Secondary School. (Is it correct?)

6. What size shoe does he wear?

- I would say, size 8.

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?

-Jersey of all sorts cause he can never have enough of it.

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?

- Does Naan or Kebab counts? Cheese fillings would be his favorite.

9. What would this person eat every day if he could?

- My homecook Beefball Pasta with heavy load of parmesan cheese, I hope.

10. What is his favorite cereal?

- Not from my knowledge; he don't usually eat cereal.

11. What would he never wear?

- Anything too noticing. He prefers bermudas and a tee/polo with slippers to complete his look. I like him like that. *winks

12. What is his favorite sports team?

- SAFFC, Tampines Rovers and mostly Liverpool. (Go!Go!Go!)

13. Who did he vote for?

If you are talking about Suria's artists, I bet he votes for Taufik Batisah, Fiza-O and the newscaster; Alawiyah Md Siz (if I spells her name correctly). The list will go on and on cause he's very much into local scene. Haha!

14. Who is his best friend?

- I am in love with my bestfriend and vise versa so, its got to be me.

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?

- My blog; the stalking issue and disclosing too much information about him.

16. What is his heritage?

- Javanese but, tends to teach me speaks Boyan. How contradicting!

17. What is his favourite colour?

- He's not picky on colors as long its not Pink.

18. What is his habit?

- When he burps he will blow it at my face and the other is, farting under the blanket. He is an a*shole at that!

19. What is he proud of?

- He is a very proud uncle to his twin tower and I can't wait to get my hands on them. Pfft!

20. Lastly, do you think he will read this?

- I am definite, he will! And if you do; there's no other love than you.

2009-02-12T19:18:00.015+08:00

*// Hearts all over the world

I am not the type whom throw a huge celebration over Valentine's Day (which come a little too late, I suppose). Personally, I always set aside precious thoughts for a mind-riding galore about love on every 14th February. And, through nearly 23 years searching for that particular meaning of love, I have my twenty-own version of profound definiton on my list which involves family, friends and my other half. I may not fully touched its true essence yet, I managed to have deep grasp of what that four letter word really means to me. I don't want be too late in doing this because these past weeks has taught me some priceless experience of a lifetime. I shall spare that only to my love ones. This is my reasoning to love, do you have yours?

*humming to Jason Mraz "..and, its love love love love love.."

Love is when my late grandmother got arthritis; she couldn't bend her body hence, my late grandfather helped her out all the time even when his hands got arthritis too.

Love is when my mother makes coffee for my father and she usually takes a sip to always make sure the taste is alright before giving it to him before/after work.

Love is when I kiss him all the time and when I get tired of doing so, I still want to be together and tend to talk more; he is like my favourite hello and hardest goodbye.

Love is when I tell something unpleasant and scared he won't love me but, then you get surprised because that makes him love you more.

Love is when it comes in two kinds - Love for the living/non-living things and Love for Allah; its hard to come by therefore, treasure them while you still have the chance to.

Love is when I am so close with my friends to the extend that they cry my tears shed, they angry I start to flare up, they laugh I share their joy and they in pain I grit my teeth.

Love is when my mother switched on the pest-buster device, sweep my fringe upwards, kissed me on the forehead and pull my blanket before I go to bed.

Love is when I think he still looks good despite being sweaty after his football match, uncombed hair or even without any cologne after work.

Love is when I can be myself without having to try too hard or being somebody else around every people whom I truly love.

Love is when I learnt to loved and be loved better through people that hurts me the most.

Love is when my brother search for the food I am craving for despite being tired from work in the middle of the night to ensure I have my stomach filled.

Love is when I feel absolute about myself and the people whom revolves around me without having any hesitations, paranoia nor insecurities towards them.

Love is when I gazed in his eyes, butterflies began to flutter in my stomach; looking forward to spending a lifetime together.

Love is when I believe that its more than my addiction for coffee, more than my lust to retail therapy and more than my adoration on Johnny Depp.

Love is when my uncle piggy-ride me as I groaned in great agony all the way to the hospital and sit through till I was warded, the next morning.

Love is when I dream about them on some nights when I get too fond of their presence.

Love is when I listened to certain songs and feels the relations to my heart and made it skip a beat.

Love is when the world finally put a stop to the ongoing violence and divert those revenge nor hatred into peace talks/negotiations in a mankind way.

Love is when I tend to smile without reason at the thoughts of them.

Love is when I feel everything seems perfect cause love see through all the imperfections.

And this year, its nonetheless special to basked in serenity with Heartshape. I thank you for walking in my less than perfect soul and made me feels complete. I know my words doesn't always be melodious to your ears nor my actions doesn't always soothe your heart but, I am sure you know how very much I love you. From the littlest things you did for me to those heartwarming help you endlessly offers. From accepting my flaws and all to the fully-expensed short KL trip we had. I can never express my utmost gratitude. Whenever you say those three words, my heart never fails to stop and pounded heavily at the same time. You definitely have me from the first day and ends at never after (those butterflies in the stomach are not excluded). I am standing on cloud nine! Lalalalala~

Live. Love. Laugh.
xoxo

2009-02-11T20:43:00.004+08:00

*// Calamity

As I walked briskly to the same route every passing day; home sweet home. My feet made a sudden halt just in front this hall (we used to call it dome) where a group of five schoolgirls were breakdancing to the upbeat of music airing through their portable speakers. I smiled a little too much as reminisce of those time when I was at their age and they made a great impersonation of me and my girlfriends. It does gives some chill through my spine. From skateboarding our way through Bukit Panjang Park to frequently dancing in every competition/performance that came by. From breakdancing to how we start rapping and b-boxing. From starting to open a girl band to drooling over dreamy guys. From catfights with the senior to inter-stream staring war. We had everything in the bag.

Subconsciously there's a blessing in diguise through this thing called 'blogging' I crosspathed a few from my high school days. From one led to another, little did I know this blog drama that stirred up made me realize there are actually readers (be it a friend or mere bloghopper) came in with a readily support. I thanked them whom dropped emails identifying your true identity hence, will be kept confidential by me. I was especially taken aback when a particular long-lost girlfriend emailed me to share her story and my heartfelt goes to her. Despite years passed, we can still chat like good friends that we were and recall our last meetup all the way back in those Reggae Nights. Five to six years, I reckon?

While chatting with her in MSN, it got me really emotional upon things that befalls cause they were so dear to me at a point of time. The offence that was committed by another friend was quite heavy and she'll be sentenced to a minimum of 5 years imprisonment. The best I can do, is to pray that she gets convicted with a charge and the other will be drop. I know you both will missed each other companion. I may not own a sister but, I surely knows how it feels to be apart with people that is so fond to your heart. You can always count on me as a friend. Stay strong like you both always are! *hugs

I began acquintated with my bestfriend, Din during ITE and only then I realized he knows I was from Greenridge and so is he. Among all they years in school we were absolute strangers and unexpectedly, we just grew closer. His current girlfriend, Erlis was also from the same school to my astonishment. I knew that for myself but, what I didn't realize she were classmates with my brother. Pure coincidence! I am just happy to see they are very much in love. I can never see that 'lovey dovey' part of him if not for this. Haha! Therefore, no matter how people drives me up the wall through my blog you'll never see me privatising nor ever delete this little blog space of mine. Never!

A last entry before I sets off for another escapade.
xoxo

2009-02-10T19:06:00.005+08:00

*// Heartbreaker

Gosh! They look too perfect together and I am still in a state of disbelief.

".. Police confirmed on late Sunday that an unidentified woman phoned 911 and claimed she got into a fight with the singer and he attacked her. The woman had visible injuries. When officers arrived, they found the victim,but he had already left the crime scene .." - US Weekly

Chris Brown and Rihanna backed out at the very last minute from their performance at the Grammys. Honestly she was the only reason my eyes was glued watching that show but, to my dismay. He was then arrested and booked on felony charges the same night, for making criminal threats and according to multiple sources the victim for his act of alleged was indeed his own girlfriend, Robyn Fenty or better known as Rihanna herself. She was assaulted with a deadly weapon which was informed to be his deadly fist.

In my favourite talk show, Tyra Banks - He confessed on how abusive his stepfather was towards his mother and admitted that he ever threatened to kill him with a baseball bat. He also said that his stepfather shot himself in the head. The shot went straight through the eyes. He survived the suicide attempt but, was permanently blinded. And for all these years, he has been a positive public figure and little did I know the dark side of his life. But, that doesn't give him every right to abused one self at a spike of an argument.

Rihanna was spotted yelling and crying in the hospital. She was brought in the back entrance and escorted by police officers. Whatever happened, I am sure she was clearly very upset and angry. Which is good; she should be. She should be flaming mad at him – whom I hope is now her exboyfriend (despite adoring them as the best matchmake). No man will ever beat a woman and that's coward especially when it happened to be Chris Brown whom has quite a clean record as compared to any other uprising artists.

I hope my poor Riri get well soon and be back on her feet stronger than before.

With much love,

Your diehard fan of all time - Sery Danceholic

2009-02-06T11:23:00.010+08:00

*// Go shortie, its your birthday

On the eve of her birthday, I chose a place to satisfy both our cravings (killing two birds at one time) by our humble dining at Popeye. I can sensed how excited she was as that's her first time setting foot at that particular place. She was shrieking with joy being enchanted by the ambience to the sight of Singapore Flyer. I never failed to used the work of arts as presents for people I loved most and that's when I handover the card nicely done for her. A proper meal is incomplete without desserts and we made our trip to Marina Square for the sinful indulgence at Swensens. It was all about food and its priceless to see the glowing smile in her face.

On the actual day itself, I was called upon by Efni larling at the nick of time. Thank god! I am not the kind that spend hours dolling myself up cause most of my time is taken rummaging through my overflowing wardrobe. Girls will always be girls what! Rushed my way out, then set in at Bugis and I had my favourite bowl of chicken mushroom noodle. The convenience of online shopping has caused uneasy feeling as I scale through Bugis Village, not having anything that catch my eyes. Made alliance with some trishaw peddlers hence, being able to seek comfort sitting on them. What a way to make friends! *chuckles aloud

As the birthday girl has to make her way to school, we were persistent to physco her not to. Intermidating as it is, we settled for her to go half the lesson. So her personal belongings like handphone, wallet and camera were confiscated. And, since she needs S$6 to give her friend, I give it to her in exact amount and that's all she is left with. I and Efni then start getting busy scouting for cake and whatnots. Adding some party people to brighten the atmosphere. Had our hot chocolate at Starbucks while waiting and we bumped into Ratna. Only then Acchan and Eila came along to join in the fun. Amidst the chaos and all, we managed to pull it off. A simple affair for the people you cherish like treasure chest.

HAPPY BOOBSDAY HONEY YAYA.

A rough time has come for you but, you are not standing there alone. You know, I am just a phone call away when you most needed me. I'll be your pair of listening ears and a shoulder to cry on. Like I always do, I cry along with you. Allah gave various tests cause he know you have a strong willpower to pull through all odds and that he loves you. I pray for your neverending bliss today and onwards. Have a fruitful life ahead. From now till I breathe my last, you found a friendship in me. That's not a promise but, a vow for keepsake.

P.S. I love you - TGIF is here again and I love when this day comes!

2009-02-05T10:13:00.012+08:00

*// Another day - An endless drama

Printscreens were abstracted from dandyaffair (By the way, it does comes with an "S" at the end).

Our resident's stalker is back on the prowl when she decided to exposed Watie presence in her can-count-by fingers blog. But what she didn't realize that only led to her massive self-embarassment when me and the two comrades (Zilin and Lisa) intrude her comment space with a piece of our mind. As expected, all the comments were screened soon after and that short entry of hers became a long composition after editing 97584350 times to conceal her own ass. She can jolly well be running scot-free in the eyes of her readers but, can never hideaway from the real truth that she herself created.

Just so you know, we were minding our own business till this entry came about. And no, obviously the headshot is not ugly cause if it is, you won't go to the extend of copying all sort of poses she does. Stop yakking away on us being the physco stalkers cause that makes you far worse than that. From duplicating multiple accounts or using another friend's multiply in desperate need to gain access what is written behind closed door. You poor thing! Like I said, my definition of stalker is for someone that is not in the contact list and being able to read a private entry was far beyond the acts of a physco. That amazed me big time, yeah big time!

Ah huh, it took us a week to realize this entry goes to show how least we paid attention to your full-of-cobwebs-website. As compared to you, whom breezely replied each comment in less that two minutes. And speaking of which, we are not hate tagging. What a word to use! We were merely conveying your conscientious by proving our point through your comment space. Its a public post and when it involves my bestfriend, you are bound to get a tongue lashing. This explains it all, "I won't have start howling if you won't have start barking". Excuse me miss, watch your language! God is not ugly, you are. I am not that pretty myself but at the least, I don't go cursing and swearing people in almost every entry like you do.

Well, I do think my comments are pretty much neutral cause I state only truth and nothing less than that. I know you snoop around more often than we do and I am sure this post is much waited by you. Please edit again, its not "beli dulu, pakai kemudian", its "pakai dulu, bayar kemudian" cause maybe you have no sense of differentiation. Just like how you compare Gucci to Guess (perhaps its of comparison standards only in Petaling Street). As usual, when it comes to my punchback words, it always left her speechless and only able to repeat each words I have thrown at her. Then comes this divavicious replying shamelessly when all I was writing about was directed solely to that blog's owner. And "cabot" (run away) right after which showed how un-vicious she was.

You are obviously in a state of denial when you disown mywaredrobe or noreinsayang cause if they are genuinely your friends behind this profile, they will be in your blog more often than lingering in our blogs every single day. It seems they find more thrill in ours than in yours. That's really sad, really! When you caught Watie viewing your profile once and began a blog entry out of it. How about a fourplet entries when Zilin came to your blog more than four times in a day? We are definitely smarter than you to speak the least cause we have to stoop this low to ensure you understand every words we penned down. Such hardwork conversing with minah, you know. Well done my girls! I'll give credit where credit is due.

Plagiariser don't deserve anything intelligent, if you must know!

And yes, we prefer to have kepo friends like this than having those who cabot (run away) when you are in dire need of help. Indeed we are blessed with an exciting job, perfect man by our side, great family and even greater friends whom we can called bestfriends. Above all that, we also got a wedding to plan which preoccupied our time on most days. Speaking of which, I thought you have a wedding to prepare? Okay fine, I'll give in to you on this part. Perhaps this is what you have been prying; to find inspirations for your big day. So there, you got a sneak preview of it. Happy now? Go get some brilliant ideas through this and get yourself busy with appropriate things to do from now on!

What is coward, if you may ask? For a man to threaten a girl through a phone call and when the girl's boyfriend gave another call, all that man can reply is "he is sleeping". For a stalker who has been offered a meetup publicly by this blog owner to settle some scores yet, still kept mummed and continues calling us cowards. You tell me, who's the coward now? Go figure. I really pity the man that is saying his lifetime vows for you cause he will be disturbed by that headshot (a bride leashing a groom like a dog) as much as we do. For someone to degrade her fiance that low and again, its really that sad. Perhaps, you can take the mirror back and reflect upon yourself.

Thanks and goodbye.

With Regards,
Sery Danceholic on behalf of the Bietches Inc

2009-01-31T16:00:00.008+08:00

*// Of bliss and love

Liv (Kate Hudson) and Emma (Anne Hathaway) are best friends who since childhood have planned every detail of their respective weddings. At the top of their bridal must-have" list; a ceremony at New York's ultimate bridal destination, the Plaza Hotel. Now at age 26, they are both about to get married, realizing their dreams and about to live happily ever after. Or maybe not. When a clerical error causes a clash in wedding dates, they are now to be married on the same date. Liv, Emma and their lifelong friendship are put to the ultimate test. Liv, a successful lawyer who is used to getting what she wants; including the perfect job and the perfect man, won't settle for anything less than the perfect wedding she has dreamt of for years. Emma, a school teacher who has always been good at taking care of others but, not so much in looking after herself; discovers her inner Bridezilla and comes out swinging when her own dream wedding is imperiled. Now, the two best friends who do anything for each other find themselves in a no-holds-barred, take-no-prisoners struggle that threatens to erupt into all-out war. - Abstracted from Yahoo!

Here comes my not-so impress verdict over noticeable, lack of humor chick flick. No wonder weddings are a dreaded event if "Bride Wars" be the case, as there's not much to be laughed about in this mirthless movie about two best friends trying to sabotage each other's matrimonial preparations when their wedding dates were accidentally booked on the same day at their much-sought venue. As if getting past the overly contrived premise isn't enough, the film's lackadaisical direction that centers on the increasingly cartoonish brushes between its shrill and dunderhead protagonists prove too much to salvage for the combined charm of Kate Hudson and Anne Hathaway. Instantly turn bitter rivals upon realizing that due to a scheduling foul up, only one of them can proceed. When neither bride-to-be would budge from the fully booked June date, both woman take their insubstantial conflict into a catty fight of who can outmaneuver the other into taking the remaining slot.

From feeding Liv too much fattening indulgences so she can't fit into her Vera Wang dress to sabotaging her hair dye with luminous blue color. From disrupting Emma during a spray-painting to turn her skin into orange to exchanging the dvd for a huge embarassment. Such single-minded skirmish merely reduces its characters into irritating dunces when it's supposed to be the source of humor. Hudson and Hathaway may be charming women but no thanks to a hackneyed script, both actresses were reduce to annoying females in a drab romantic comedy which has an easy resolution obvious at the start, but won't go there before piling up on the slapstick with such airheaded vigor and patching them up with compulsory schmaltz.

Bestfriends turned enemies with a mean streak in a sitcom of two bubble-brained is an absurdly outdated notion. Friendship triumphing over once in a lifetime affair showed not an ounce of intelligence or self-respect. Cause I am a truly believer that I'll want nothing but, the best for my friends and makes my presence felt on their wedding day. The only part I find pretty sweet was when she was proposed with the heartmelting Tiffany & Co ring probably, every girls dream. My face glowed at the sight of the Tiffany-color box. And, as I walked pass the boutique at Takashimaya, I couldn't get my eyes off it till Heartshape had to pull me away and distract my attention. I am just dreaming away but, Bvlgari or Cartier would be fine too. Just kidding lah! Perhaps having it as a theme color will be good enough. My weekends are always reserved to fall back into his arms from dawn to dusk. Most importantly, thank you for accompanying me to a girly kind of movie knowing, I wanted to watch it so bad. *flicks my hair

On an unrelated note but on the topic of bestfriend, you turn a quarter century today. I am glad our friendship made this far and despite getting caught up with our own lives, we still check upon each other once in awhile. I'll never forsake nor trade this affiliation we have for anything in the world cause you were once my life savior. During the roughtest patch of my life, you embraced me when I breakdown in tears like a true friend would. During times when I ran out of my mind, you gave me a tongue-lashing with your straighforward yet, confiding remarks. For that, my gratitude goes to you and the Sengal Clan. As much as you have been there for me, I will always be there for you too. From those club scene addiction to skanking the night away at gigs. From riding aimlessly in our neighbourhood road to void deck bumming. From sharing the same genre of songs to our favorite section at Flash n Splash as Volcom-freaks. That's why, we are bestfriends till now and eternally.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIN.

2009-01-30T03:21:00.010+08:00

*// Retail therapy

As I have guessed it right, insomnia strikes me hard tonight. Some thoughts crawled in and it sends creepy shivers to my delicate spine. I have to be awake by 6am to send the parental unit for her medical appointment and at this hour, my eyes are still glued to my laptop's screen. Being that usual routine I surfed my must-view websites and to my contentment, the hands began itching to all the sinful sight I stumbled upon. I declare defeat this time.

The Fashion Festival by Studiofrost

I am one of the many others whom are invited to their well-organized bonanza. But to my dismay, I missed it for the world cause assumingly preoccupied today. It will be such bliss if I am able to lay my hands on their headgears or the Babyfrost (not that I am pregnant or would be expecting anytime soon) edition is ubber cute. Nevertheless, I still could just view for my eye pleasure online. Gosh! I could have sworn it drive me out of sanity if I am present there.

Victoria's Secret Spree

If only I have a lump sum of money, spreeing on you will be my favorite pastime. At such grab-and-go prices slashed, how can I not have the urge to splurge? Dozens of items caught my attention, unsurprisingly. On the other hand, I am also in dire need to stock up some of the essential products too. And knowing me, I'll never trust those local stores selling be it at Mustafa Centre, Bugis nor Watson/Guardian outlets. Argh! Life of being a woman. This is truly frustrating.

*starts sulking under her comforter like a baby

2009-01-29T19:29:00.011+08:00

*// Once upon a time

It's only through this working experience, I gained a bundle of colleagues I am proud to call true friends (besides being in Sentosa). They might not realize this but, it has made me a better workaholic as a Junior Captain; the first jobscope which gave me a responsibility to lead the team. I am never the type who bossed around nor those who get ticked off at the slightest tiff. I chose to remain in the background and take silence as an action of peace. Never once raise my voice and often seems transparent at work.

With colleagues like them (I am sure you know who you are), I became more adamant. At the slightest person whom stepped on my tail, I gave them a whole day of misery. A piece of my mind is something you seldom see unless during working hours. I shout and scream but, that's to those who work by bootlicking the higher authorities. I am known to be a perfectionist while carrying my job. That is just me by nature. That aside and through the days I get much closer to them it has been nothing but, all fun and laughter. The comfort zone got too infectious that some was transferred to other outlets as separation.

Goodbyes are assumingly the hardest thing I have to do especially when its someone as dear as you. But, I could only count on my blessing and share his happiness as he seized the opportunity of having his dream job; a Flight Attendance in Northwest Airlines. Tears was shed during the process as I send him off at the airport cause a good friend like you is hard to come by. A year or so has come and passed yet, the sweet memories still vivid. It felt oh-so yesterday and I can't help but smile and teared a little at the thoughts of it.

From being my mentor of salsa /chacha dancing to creating drinks in the bar. From the early train rides to the long bus journey home. From mugging ourselves at Starbucks to stuffing ourselves with Tamarind Chicken or Triple C Panini. From those self-absorbed phototaking to our usual dosage of gossips. From the craziness of lunch time to cursing irritating customers. I thank you and them whom always stood by and never lose faith in me. Treat me as a friend and never defy me as a lead. I miss all of that but, most of all I miss you and them too!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STARKEY.

That's my advance wish for you, my dear friend all the way at Memphis. May a year older bring more blissful encounters in your daily life after a few unpleasant things that have occurred. I pray nothing but, all the best wishes for you, your career and your life ahead. Just so you know, whenever you chat with me in MSN (without any response), its actually my Mom and not me cause if you must know, I always appear offline. Never once fail to nudge you, if you were online.

*chuckles loudly

Most importantly, at least a layover in Singapore once in a blue moon for another session of coffee?

2009-01-23T18:39:00.006+08:00

BLOGGER IS OUT OF TOWN - ON HIATUS

2009-01-20T12:20:00.007+08:00

*// Window into Palestine

Note: Pictures uploaded here may have gruesome contents. Do not proceed for those whom are faint-hearted. This is just a piece of my solace thoughts. Any parties offended are solely pun intended.

Kepadanya (Only to him) from Taufik Batisah featuring Hady Mirza relates best to me with this issue. The devastating Israeli firepower unleashed largely on Palestinian civilians in Gaza during two weeks of fighting. Its the product of advanced U.S. military technology provided by Washington and has been drawn into the political controversy over arms sales to Israel prompted by the assault on Gaza. From air and land bombardment to shelling their homes. From attacking with tank shell to Israeli fire. I, on the other hand thinks its a conspiracy from Bush as he stepped down from his position.

I may not be following closely about the invasion nor massacre but, I do realize how this issue has been prolonged. I wonder why do such ouright military rights be granted if it meant harm to the innocents. I couldn't bring myself to upload more pictures cause it just bring tears to the eyes. And the death toll is increasing day by day. It is disturbing to know such immoral violence do occur in this civilised world. And, the presence of Barack Obama taking his responsibilities bring a glimpse of hope to hundreds and thousands and millions of people around the world.

With this fact, I am really thankful that nothing of that sort happens here in my hometown and hopefully, it never will. Peace at its best and nothing more to ask for. Here is where I have my loved ones that I learnt to treasure every single day of my existence cause life and death is beyond our predictament. There's no time to spare for any form of hatred to harbor. Sadly, most of the time we only realize how much they truly meant to us only after they are gone and that is tad too late, I reckon.

Dear the almighty Allah,

Please bless the victims and serenade them with much peace in your embrace. Do protect and keep the other innocent lives under your watchful eyes from being taken away. With your mightiest willpower, may this war be put to a stop soon cause its truly an unpleasant view. I am truly blessed you gave this simple life and make me feels complete with the people around me and if you have to take them away, makes it as righteous cause they deserve nothing but, the best place by your side. Amin.

With love and grievance - Sery Danceholic.

2009-01-19T02:08:00.006+08:00

*// Rihanna-tic

The good girl gone bad has promised to be good for one night on 13th February 09 - I'll be at that country on that very date (not to watch her again, of course). I am ubberly impressed by her for being able to accomodate the special request ruled to her by the authorities. From her usual sex appealing sense of fashion to being fully covered. Despite seeing her dressing up casually while going out but, for the upcoming show? How fascinating!

R&B sensation Rihanna will shun skimpy outfits when she performs in Malaysia next month. Becoming the latest international star affected by the Muslim-majority country's strict rules on performers' dressup. Recent concerts by Gwen Stefani and Avril Lavigne faced protests by conservative Muslim Malaysians over immodest clothings. Gwen eventually made what she called "a major sacrifice" at her show by donning attire that revealed little skin.

Under government guidelines, a female performer must be covered from the top of her chest including her shoulders all the way to her knees. The organizer of Pussycat Dolls concert in 2006 were fined nearly $3,000 after the U.S. girl group was accused of flouting decency regulations. The Malaysian organizers of Rihanna upcoming performance, voiced hopes that protests would not mar the Grammy-winning singer's hyped-up show.

Rihanna's management is aware of the country's regulations and the difficulties of doing a show. However, the opposition Pan-Malaysian Islamic Party which blasted Lavigne's on-stage moves as "too sexy" last year, said in an online commentary that Rihanna was "sexier and more dangerous" than Lavigne. Rihanna will perform in a 16,000-capacity Kuala Lumpur stadium and just hours after newspapers announced the event, her tickets were briskly selling away.

Why must I get so over the moon over this? Perhaps, its like back in those early teenage days where we idolise boy/girl bands and hummed over their song only to sing out loud. Following the dance choreographed by them. Its not a fanatic syndrome but, there's always a kid in me. Just that I simply over the moon by her. I've watched some leak video of her 2009 album and I can't wait to lay my hands on them when its release.

2009-01-13T15:21:00.005+08:00

*// Starstruck

Oh my god! First was Rihanna and now this. I am really going to Jason Mraz concert at the Indoor Stadium on 5th March 2009. He is a brilliant record singer and definitely, much better singing live. If I may add, he's one of my favorite musician. My heartfelt thanks to Heartshape for accomplishing my second dream (the first was my BFF solemnisation) to kick start the year. You ain't a sweet talker nor know your ways to date/surprise me. You are an a*shole at that but, this little things you did makes me dumfounded. That's why I love you, I really do.

The way you love me each day and how you expressed it are unique in your own way. I never had a love like this before. Closest girlfriends would have known whom Heartshape really is but, to some is still a mystery yet to be unfold. The reason why I do not upload any picture to the public eyes are merely we are treasuring our private moments while it last. Some things are better left unsaid - our own little secret. Keep on guessing, babes!

P.S. Of all due respect, should I let the cat out of the bag, Heartshape? *chuckles

2009-01-12T13:50:00.005+08:00

*// Eternity

It was of great honour being able to view first-hand of you both donning on the exquisite costume during the trial session. Getting to aid them in choosing the right accessories and whether it fits rightly or choosing the other made my heart beat accelerates. I just want nothing but, the best for them as they deserve nothing less than that. This is just a sneak preview for your eye pleasure. Picture taken by yours truly and credited to Watie.

On three consecutive days before her Solemnisation Day, it was a great time spent with the BFFs and that includes you, Lisa as this don't comes often due to our own commitments. From having lunch together at Vivocity to that henna night witnessing how she is really getting hitch the next day (where the Bridesmaid get their henna done too). From the manicure session where we paint to suit the color theme to the early gathering on the actual day. Thanks Aiyda for the pretty gift which comes as a surprise to me.

When you were all dressed beyond gorgeousness and when Dino was uttering his vows I can never thank him enough for sweeping my princess off her feet. When all the gifts were readily set and how the decorations fall in place with flower petals everywhere. I dreamt for a moment and as I slapped back to reality, I realize tears was brimming in my eyes. The mixed emotions were too overwhelming while tears may flow anytime but another part of me just wanna keep smiling sharing your joy on your most memorable day.

May this love you have for each other remains a lifetime and thereafter. You have us through your passing days, together in a new stage of marriage life. There are bound to be the up and down yet, it only makes the both of you stronger. And when you can't wait for my turn as much as I do but by then, you would have your generation I suppose. When that time comes, you three will also be my Bridesmaids ushering me through the whole thing. Insyallah. I love you just as much, my BFF. Cinderella and his prince lived happily ever after.

*lifts skirt and bows

2009-01-07T13:07:00.008+08:00

*// M.A.C Cosmetics Spree #1

I always said good things are meant to be shared and fair enough, a good friend of mine just opened a fast spree at the provided link on her spree page. Do add to shopping bag to see prices after discount. Payment need to be made by midnight (Thursday 08 Jan 2008) before the code expires. Buying M.A.C products online from US is far way cheaper than in local stores and with discounts like this, it's something not to be missed.

25% off storewide - Not valid on Viva Glam products
15% off vPost charges - Capped at USD200

http://herdeadheart.livejournal.com/13808.html#cutid1

So its time to stock up our essential necessities while the goods last.
Thanks in advance babes! *winks

2009-01-05T15:41:00.009+08:00

*// Farewell 2008

This entry may come as being tad too late as a few days have already passed through. A year passed unbelievably fast in a blink of an eye. Hence, I am contented at where things are currently. I always thought 365 days a year can never be enough. And every other year I dreamt to be lawfully wedded by the age of 25 with the man of my life. Friendship that is left are meant for keepsake to eternity and those that fall out are inevitable. I am overprotective and defensive over people that means so much in my life. I celebrated my countdown over matter of the heart and after watching our first fireworks together, I prefer to curl up like a baby and gets snuggly in his embrace. 2008 has kept me sane and 2009 will put to a state of surrealism, I reckon. I was indulging myself with excessive love from people that matters most.

1. Missed countdown with my usual clan, the Hirok Pikok

2. Exhilarating family chalet all the way at Bukom

3. Coupling up more quality time with Heartshape

4. View my best girlfriend donning on a gorgeous white dress

5. Girly session with Umra-jaan with lots of fun and laughter

6. Dropping by Velocity to give Fiza a surprise visit

7. Chillaxing session with my bestfriend, Kencet

I thank Allah that he gave me the time to close my chapter of 2008 with much contentment.

While everyone list down a whole string of to-do list for the year, I chose the latter. All I pray for are neverending love and happiness to people who revolves in my life. Just be thankful for ever littlest things that come my way. On my part, I in dire need to stop splurging frantically and start massive saving. And in the midst of bliss and all, I have my fair share of despair but that only instilled more strength especially with people who show endless care. I am walking my life as it is, tiny steps a day at a time. Deep in my heart I know it will lead me there someday, somehow. I look forward to every tomorrow and this year I've erased that doubtful sentiments. Cause you, the reason that made me certain standing in this facade world - You complete me.

On an unrelated note, I received a message from Jay earlier this morning. Adik's dad is undergoing an operation today. My heartfelt prayers goes to you and family. Al-fatehah. Reciting some prayers gives much faith, you can do your part too. Everything will fall in place and be back to the healthy state after this day forward. Insyallah.

2008-12-23T13:23:00.003+08:00

*// Happily ever after

I couldn't find the right words to exactly disentangle this sentiments so deep. But, these words I wrote comes from the bottom of my small heart. A vow I have made since that very day you declared those soothing things I love to hear. I am never the cheesy-peesy type but, I have to let something out of this congested chest. I miss you even before we bid goodbye and its too overwhelming that I got to let it out somewhere. These words are only written especially for you, Heartshape. No one else but, you - my bestfriend, my soulmate.

I'll give you comfort on difficult days and smiles when sadness intrudes. I'll provide you rainbows to follow the cloudy weather and laughters to kiss your lips. I'll spill you with sunsets to warm your heart and hugs when your spirits sag. I'll present you beauty for your eyes to see and friendship to brighten your being. I'll display you faith so that you can believe and confidence when you are in doubt. I'll bestow you courage to know yourself and patience to accept the truth. I'll instill love to complete your life as much as it has completes me.

I had a great laughter of weekends in the arms of Heartshape for 3 consecutive days. Just gazing in his eyes as seemingly as the world only revolves around us. He watched over me while I fell into a deep slumber in the comfort of his embrace. Thanks for entertaining me all the way to Serangoon to get some goodies and mend my heart of missing Yaya and her mother. Movie marathon awaiting - Twilight and Bedtime Stories on Christmas eve. Tickets booked online of fear the expected massive crowd. I am already anticipating to have you all by myself tomorrow. I am greedy at that! *chuckles cheekily

2008-12-22T08:22:00.003+08:00

*// Lazy sunday

Like a true die hard fan or rather deep passion for football, I headed to National Stadium for AFF Suzuki Cup Semi Final 2nd-Leg between Singapore and Vietnam which came to a disappointing end for the full spectrum of spectators. It was somewhat a heartbreaking loss of 1-0 as the Lions dominated the whole game and had countless goals attempt yet, still get knocked out at the 76 minute. I daresay, they played exceeding well as compared to the previous game. Minus some passing glitches, a foolish move indeed. Perhaps they are down by luck or its plain tactical on Vietnam counterpart.

Honestly, I saw that winning goal coming when our defenders were not at their best yesterday. The opponent manage to evade Ismail Yunus tackle and drew Lionel Lewis off his goal post before making a winning score. While the majority cheered on Baihakki Khaizan and Noh Alam Shah throughout the match, I had my eyes fixed to the outstanding play by Shahril Ishak and Shi Jiayi. I thought, our local players are far off better than those imports with the bad performance of Precious and Agu Casmir last night. Just an opinion though on my part. However for this match, Md Ridhuan showed his utmost potential on the pitch. I'll give credit where credit is due.

I think the referee was tad too lenient over the dispute at the beginning of the match when a Vietnam player attacked Shaiful Esah (correct me if I'm wrong) not of defensive purpose but, obviously on purpose. Showing off a red card only during extra time was not of great help either. Singapore fans were agitated by another phenomena - getting injured. Like I said, perhaps that's their tactical strategy to get this far. One after another fell on the field at the slightest tackle or even worse, a free fall. A frigging sign of wasting crucial time. Hence I am bidding my support for Thailand this finals. In terms of play, they deserve the glorious victory so much more than Vietnams' scheming tactics to bring them thus far. Enough is enough!

Definitely, I had my fair share of cursing and swearing while following sounds of the loud horn. Everytime the Lions made an attack nearing the goalpost, I'll be on my feet with much hope but to no avail. And perhaps those Kallang waves was a wrong timing prior to the goaless attempt. I know I got to watch the repeat telecast not to hurl further abusive words but, to see a closer view of the whole match. It's nice bumping with a few familiar faces, as expected. But, I guess a good time spend with Heartshape for 3 days in a row made it all worthwhile. Aishiteru!

2008-12-18T17:22:00.003+08:00

*// Cruising

My day started with an obvious glow on my face as early as 530am to dolled up for our 3days 2 nights KL/Malacca trip. Its not much of a retail therapy as I only got myself a pair of gladiator sandals. Nevertheless, the people around me makes it all worthwhile. Its just a much needed escapade to get my mind off the hustle and bustle of this city. After a few stopovers, we began with the city tour which I wasn't wee bit paying attention to the tour guide's mumbling away. I took some power nap, got my ears stuffed with music from the Zen Creative (thanks to my Heartshape!) and camwhoring once awhile that kept me occupied throughout the whole journey.

We booked ourselves in Preston Inn and I had the best roomate, Efni to endure my antics as much as I have to entertain hers. Get ourselves comfortable before changing to our casual wear for the next agenda - Bukit Bintang (only for the youngsters). Long walk in search of our much craved A&W, a short breeze at Petaling Street and the fatigue got hold of us. Goodbye night scene cause almost everyone fell ill! A short heart-to-heart talk with her before hitting the sack around 4am. Its nothing shocking, both of us woke up late despite the morning call and Yaya calling us 8347594 times. When the two bebans shares a room, its inevitable! Haha.

After our breakfast, we booked out from the hotel and headed straight to Perak for a hot spring at Sungai Klah which have such scenic view but totally non-friendly for wheelchair bounded. Even worse, the staffs were not of great help either. While everyone got excited to jump in the water, me and Efni chose to just soaked our feet while strolling around with picture takings. We find it a hassle to swim and get changed for lunch within an hour especially when the place was quite crowded. Thereafter, we proceeded to Nilai 3 where its the makciks' shopping paradise, I would say. They even bought carpets while we find a deserted spot to get snappy again.

Before checking in to Mahkota Parade, we visited Tok Sawi place with a huge spread of food. What a sumptuous dinner that bloat me to snooze again in the bus. Couldn't stay there too long cause its so close to the village side and the road is frigging narrow and by the time we reached the hotel, its 10pm already. This time we shared a room for 5 and predictably very chaotic indeed. Settled down and hit down to the pub to make up for the yesterday's loss. Its funny how we got hungry so fast and spotted a Mcdonalds for supper. Unfortunately it started to pour heavily and we sprinted through the rain. Ya Allah!

Last day started off with the breakfast. The toaster irks me cause it was infested with baby roaches. Yucks! Just as I started munching some food, I received a phone call from Momma on the tragic news. I had a total mixed feeling cause I knew I won't reached Singapore on time for his burial. I kept silent to sent Al-Fatehah for my late uncle and may he be place with the pious people. Amin. A short shopping spree at Tan Khim Hock for those local delicacies which I bought for my family and for Heartshape too. Before we head back to the sunny island, I get to taste the finger-licking good chendol durian. Hot weather + cold dessert = heaven. Mirza is that small small boy whom is such a hearthrob with his famous pick-up line, "Hello ladies". Dah besar confirm jadi player!

I love happy entries! I am gonna leave you with this for whom love to invade people space - Go get yourself a life or at least, share their happiness but keep your filthy mouth mum-med. I need a little privacy please! Shhhh... *winks

2008-12-16T13:33:00.002+08:00

*// A night before KL

I got more things to be done than the amount of time that I have. I rushed with the packing of my luggage as I spending the night at Yaya's crib on the eve of the trip. I felt at home with the great hospitality. Waking up as early as 530am, witnessing our "busuk" faces and she being my pillow through the night. More sleepovers ahead perhaps? With that, I found an excuse to catch up with some friends at Bugis for a fair share of donuts from J.Co, dinner at Tong Seng and desserts at a Japanese restaurant. Thanks to Nurul and Achid for the treat with all the good food and better companion. Having people like them never fails to tickled me one way or another.

To sidetrack a little, I have make a touchdown back to my tiny island safe and sound. Also on the night before I left to KL, I didn't catch a wink as I hogged on the phone while we made confession after confession. Bad timing as I would say that makes it even harder to leave. What better way to ease the heavy heart being abroad without him then to spend the whole night together. I was greeted by him as he fetched me home, put down my luggage and off I go again. No time wasted in changing nor taking a shower. I know I wanted to hugged him there and then but, a public display of affection ain't my cup of tea.

It's funny how we are too used with our language of speech since 2003 and its a hard habit to break. Nevertheless, I am not intending to change it cause that's what made us unique. And up till now, I was taken aback when you told me that you had your eyes fixed on me since the first day of school. Those daily messages and long hours of talk. Despite dropping so many hints, I was ignorant to those little details till he told me so. The small words he said always seems to fit rightly in my small heart. We never promise anything within ourselves cause many a times its meant to be broken but, the vow we uttered is a treaty kept for a lifetime. Insyallah.

I never felt this beautiful caused you make me so. From just holding my arms to gripping my hands and never let go while crossing the road. From running your fingers at my neck to that tight embraced to release the state of missing me. From hiding behind your shoulders to leaning while you wrapped your hands around me while watching the movie. Yes, the change from being mere bestfriends (which you still are) to being a special boyfriend is a little over my head but I definitely like it and you have become an addiction cause you drug-ed me.

It left me dunfounded by the truth at how sweet you can be. I am sorry, it took me so long to acknowledged your presence as much as I should but for sure I'll make up to it for the many days ahead that we are walking through together. I went through a long haul of Mr Wrongs when you have always right before my eyes all this years. Like you said, "There's no more I or you, its us" and for that, no words can decipher how I am lucky to be in love with my very own bestfriend. I still have this butterflies in my stomach, yes I do. Without a doubt, I am looking forward to all the plans we have set ourselves with.

P.S. I love you, Heartshape!

2008-12-11T12:02:00.002+08:00

*// High on love

Its funny how a feeling could transform to something new that it does scares me sometimes. And, I believe my daily prayers have come to an answer when I am justified by the clear signs by you.When you say that you'll stick around till the end of time. When you rub my forehead while I was having that terrible headache. When I mention about me being ill, you seem worried more than a mother would. You laughed at the slightest joke I make. You think its cute when I was in my usual blurry entity. You never take your eyes off me when I kept looking away. I sulked but, that was just to get more of your attention. I didn't know leaving to KL for 3 days can be this hard. I always have butterflies in my stomach with you around. I'll be missing you and I know you'll be missing me as much. Hence, it takes two to tango and you are not dancing alone. I hope this will put you away from brooding and carve a smile on your face while I'm away. *pouts

Live. Love. Laugh.

P.S. I need to start packing my bag! Mana nak bring Momma to spa, mana nak makan Popeye ngan Yaya, mana nak berangkat ke negeri jiran, mana the heart is saying no to leave. Hirok pikok siol! Till my next entry. =)

2008-12-11T00:41:00.003+08:00

*// Back to happy blogging

All that drama aside (after leaving her speechless), its a 3-in-1 birthdays! My prayers remain the same for those who are significant in my life. May Allah bestow neverending health and wealth with a longevity relation that we have harbored all this while. With you, happiness is a heartfelt sensation and I hope you feel that too. I can never thank the almighty enough nor decipher any proper words but, a huge appreciation for playing a crucial part in my life. Forever, I'll cherish every memories undenially till I breathe my last. The presence of beloved people like you, completes me.

Happy Birthday dearest Momma!

Happy Babesday twin tower Dee and Dida!

Yes, I do put in that much effort for people who matters most. And, the advance birthday wishes are given because I'll be away in KL yet not wanting to miss sending my thoughts while I'm gone. For everything that matters, you both deseve to have a blastful celebration with your closest ones. Catch with you girls for a date, soon? I love you both without a doubt! Trust me, there's ain't no sunshine if you are gone. *blows a kiss

2008-12-10T05:30:00.002+08:00

*// Spouting

Note: Things written here are supported with the truth with no coverups and witnessed by a bunch of friends involved and solely dedicated to you. If you wish to copy please, do credit and ensure your html are set properly (as not to mislead people to another blog and caught you redhanded, copying). And at least I don't comment on my own comment space like you do. Who's the crazy one, you may ask? Hmpf #$%!@$^&*

A paragraph of my writing has given her an inspiration to blog 56839480 times in less than 24 hour about her dissatisfaction or so she denied. I didn't realized my little words bruised her ego that much. She being the stalker that she is, will never proudly announce her flaws yet disguised herself well in her own blog nest. That particular entry was alerted by my very own set of friends (I am nothing without my girlfriends) and I was unaware of the oncoming. I have zilch tolerant over the slandering of two dramatic facts as per say by her.

".. I wanna meet you in person. But you come up with all kinds of bullshit reasons. && den you turn the table and say im a coward. & yes I complained about you to my fiance. Fyi, complain is a verb used to express dissatisfaction, pain, uneasiness, censure, resentment, or grief. Therefore I was unhappy about you & your words. So, I complained to him .."
".. We also think you should STOP being so evil & sparking off hatred/fights between 2 other people. Your meaningless words and actions can cause alot of hurt to 2 innocent sisters. Fyi, it has affected them .."

- Abstracted from dandyaffair.

Wow! I love your exaggeration of the story. Since when you ever arise the topic of meeting up? It will be of great pleasure to meet you eye to eye and let my instincts do the rest of the job. I have given you a public offer for a meetup, how about that? And this appeal has been made right before you. Undoubtedly, you are good at whining therefore, you don't have to tell me the meaning of complain cause you portray that word used. To seek pity on an opposite gender to solve girls affair is a clear sign of cowardness on your part. Stop being in a state of denial. By the way, since when I ever get involve with your family? I never wrecked a home even more do harm to kids. The only person that may get serious damage from me is you and no one else! Please put a halt to your aimless accusations and do a self reflection upon yourself.

Something to refresh your memory, in case you forget before I start a piece of my mind.

Its fantabulous, more than nice - Brought to you by Aimanwati and friends.

#1 Confession of a copycat
Yes! She finally confessed she copied yet, still thinks that its okay to do so. Copyright is punishable by law. It may not be a major offence yet that is the basic blogging etiquette you should possess. A credit to the owner will do justice like "Credit to" or "Abstracted from" like exactly what I did above. And no, I won't call the police (being your favorite sentence) cause I prefer to settle these scores with you personally.

#2 I do not know you, you do not know me
This is by far the only sentence that comes out sensible from you. Amazingly, this time I dig this phrase so much cause I agreed fully to what has been said. Its a great honour on my part that you don't know me and its even more prestigious that I do not know you. Enough said!

#3 Sri, the bragger
For someone to publicize her wanting for an expensive ring way before it was even bought and end up with a Joo Chiat ring with that term "pakai dulu bayar kemudian". At least there's a reason for Watie to speak her mind cause she got the exact ring she craved for and the best part, Dino put in effort to make it worthwhile. The big word here is: EFFORT. For someone to proudly write about her own dirty laundry (e.g. having sex in a dinky van) was a yummy encounter. You curse and swear about how a sl*t one is yada yada. What does this makes you? If dining at Canele Patisserie is a need for you to copy, I can understand why you can't get a room. I never once said I am rich, you did. Now that are just to name a few and since truth been told, which part of me brags?

#4 Speaking of the children
I feel sorry for the kids to have gone through so much turmoil at such young age and I think I am in the right position to feel their plight. What put me to a more sorry state is you, being a mother. I am not degrading you but, your childish antics don't prove me your worth. You are maligning a little overboard on this matter just to seek pity in your can-count-by-fingers blog? Oh, come on! Mixing so many of your hatred issues into one entry is so predictable.

#5 Female dogs
This is exciting too! Since you frequently bring the name of God in your entries, here's my part of my say. Teaching me about "halal and haram" of religion matters. Let me correct you, dogs are not najis as per say by you. They are also part of Allah's creation. I worked with animals and I know them better cause without a doubt, they are more civilise than you do. My dear Watie is a proud Skinny Bi*ch if you don't realize cause perhaps you are just envious that you can never be as beautifully slim as her. And, to state the record straight she is also created by Allah in this manner. Who are you to judge? Kalau tak dapat jilat, bau pun jadi. Who's the dog now?

P.S. Just if you are still oblivious, we are known as Bietches Inc for a definite reason and that extra "e" stands for Extreme. Beware we are coming for you! I am done with my tongue-lashing issue. I know you have been anxiously waiting for this post to be publicly published. So, feast your eyes to every words I said like you always do. Another space wasted! I chose to be happy (hope you do too) so, a promise made for more blissful entries ahead.

2008-12-06T15:10:00.001+08:00

*// Till death do us part

Oh god! As I was browsing through my photo album, I realized my mind going senile. How can I ever forget to write about my most happy occasion this year? Someone I called Paman whom supported me through my 22-years of solace existence in this face of earth. Being honoured to be chosen as his photographer during Solemnisation and an emcee for his purple-themed affair. His gifts' decoration was simply made by the simple me (my brother ones, coming up). I am not that artistic but, that's the amount of effort I am countable for the person I owe my live to. And no words of thanks can be verbally said. The incomplete family picture was a spontaneous shot yet, set tears to his eyes. I stood up with a tissue and wipe it away, holding back my tears. When he embraced me that tight, I know things will never be the same again. Nevertheless, may this love remains a lifetime and thereafter.

Happy Marital Bliss to you both!

How I love my family that has always been whacky when I need them to yet still being that pillar of strength in times of those rough patches. I am fortunate to have an amazingly coolest set of family and I am impatiently awaiting for Hari Raya Haji cum Brother's Engagement and also our 5-days chalet at Pulau Bukom. I'l never miss any form of gathering or reunion pertaining to my family - my life, my world. Its gonna get pretty crazy, I reckon! *winks

2008-12-04T12:58:00.006+08:00

*// Holiday mode on

Note: When I promised an update with pictures, I kept my words. But when you speak too loud with no actions it get worn out in time. Don't tell me the camera that you bought and proudly advertised was another case of scam or to be exact, copy.
How sad, really I feel for you!

I need to vent a little abusive words for that particular kiddo who creates endless blogwar and now, in Facebook? Being a stalker (which she claims we are the ones) is a passe. It has been going for years and if you don't realize its going to be 2009 soon. Gosh! How I simply despise "minah" polluting onlinesphere for no apparent reason. I don't usually look down on one self but her endless bragging bores the hell out of me. Perhaps a Joo Chiat ring - that "pakai dulu, bayar kemudian" rings a bell? Don't get me started again cause pushing your luck too far is not good for your health as you know how ugly it can be. Its more noble to be a man's bestfriend (since you call her a dog) rather than being anything related to you. I love cats but the only species of cat I hate most is a copycat like you! So shuuh...

Putting aside the unpleasant start of this entry. I got a dose of my most favorite bunch to celebrate a birthday and I am sex-cited to be part of the surprise at East Coast Park. Having good food is the utmost essential when we are out. Two tables of steamboat with a wide array of seafood was our choice this time round. I brought Aizam along cause he being the angel that he is and despite just reaching home from work, he insisted to follow me as I was down with those regular pain. Unshockingly, I had an instant recovery seeing all the smiling faces of beloved ones.

The name "Hirok Pikok", totally runs in our blood. From playing two games of table soccer (we turned esctatic upon seeing it) to watching DVD of their trip to Phuket. From flipping the pages of that huge photo album to laughing at corny jokes. Our usual picturesque antics. The ritual for the birthday girl was to feed each and everyone of us a spoonful of that small slice of brownie. How can I not love them? A short night but, enough to make me a happy little girl and plastered the sweetest smile all the way back home despite getting pestered by a shameless acquintance trying to get his attention. Tsk!

Happy Babesday Melissa Joanne Rozario!

December has come way too soon and more birthdays in the line to close the chapter of 2008. I have booked an appointment at Wayan Retreat Balinese Spa as a rejuvenation for my dearest Momma as her gift. Unfortunately the other birthday invitation clashes with my trip hence, I definitely make it up to her when I am back. Speaking of which, I'll be going for a short getaway which will do wonders cause I need a breather from this turbulence. KL will be the choice of trip and its all about chill-laxing and upkeep my finance without any major retail splurges, I hope. There you have it, my too many words in a single entry! Weekend is just around the corner and its well-planned, hope you do too. *winks

2008-12-01T23:43:00.001+08:00

*// Keeping my head high

Indeed, a shocking blast at Mumbai killed a Singapore-born girl just recently. My deepest condolences to the family and friend for their lost. All the rage happening around the world. The unresolved protest in Bangkok. Unstable economy. The heavy recession that hit hard to our country. Somehow its just sad that when such mishap happened, the innocent beings are the most affected. It just made me feel as though "that day" is approaching very soon.

Therefore I never fails to thank Allah each day whenever I awake in the morning, feeling extraordinarily good just being alive. Knowing that I have a great family and friends to treasure cause they make a heaven on earth for me. I realized that life is too short to gloat upon miseries as I know its nothing compare to far way unfortunate people than me. Despite all the agony or whatnots, smiling is the best medicine. I chose to be happy and that's that.

A collaboration of captivating vocals by famous female singers sharing the same stage for a campaign "Stand Up to Cancer". The divas sang that heartfelt song Stand Up originated from Mariah Carey which deserved a standing ovation from the audience. Sometime littlest things like this made you realize how short life can be and anyone no matter your nationality, race nor religion is outcast from this phenomena. Hence, I treasure every moment while I still can. Enjoy the video! =)

P.S. While watching Quarantine, I thank you for allowing me to hide behind your shoulder when the impactful movie constantly made me jumped off my seat. It's hilarious in a certain way too. Haha!

2008-11-28T20:34:00.001+08:00

*// Sneak peek

The paparazzi had a good headshot on this and amazingly, I didn't realize when it was taken. Totally candid beyond words (my expression proves it) and to get the full coverage hang in there to know what's the commotion about. Sungguh hirok pikok! At the mean time, I'll need to rest aplenty as my backbone is reacting crazily of late. Happy TGIF!

2008-11-25T01:11:00.005+08:00

*// Placid

Being assaulted is no joke, darling! I know how your jobscope are prone to such acts. Every job comes with a consequence and if I became that Paramedics, me too have lots to scarifice. Just few days okay, we were rocking the dancefloor and it got me unaware you fallen ill till I stumbled upon your multiply. On a brighter note, at least you have a fuller pouty lips as those of Angelina Jolie. You should have called me cause I would have come to rescue you. Get well soon hor, who knows another grooving session awaits! Perhaps, I'll see you tonight?

On an unrelated note, I am truly touched by your gesture. Despite being in that state, you travel all the way down to my vicinity for a dinner with me. What seems to be a short meetup became six-hour long without realizing the time. I am flabbergusted that your friend remembers through your constant talks with him, about me. It's nice to ditch those high-end dining once in awhile and takeaway food from Long John Silver for a good time-spent. Chatting about anything and everything under the clouds. Goodbye are totally a bi*ch when we hope the clock would just stop ticking. And when you imposed that question, you left me totally dumfounded. Smitten or not? I have yet to decide but for sure you blew my Monday blues away.

P.S. Croaking session with the cousins soon, I heard? Its your treat okay!
*wide grins from ear to ear*

2008-11-24T02:03:00.001+08:00

*// Fondness.

You girls always makes me feel on top of the world (literally we are in Singapore Flyer) with no amount of words can narrate my gratitude. I can never thanked both of you enough for being such sweethearts being the chocolate chips to my cookie. Without your presence, I will have an incomplete puzzle to my life cause even the toughest cookie crumbles sometime. And, at this point time I need nothing but that warmth embrace which eventually melts away any misery. Its funny how I can smile without reason whenever I think of all the times we have together.

I love you girls!

2008-11-23T21:05:00.002+08:00

*// Heartpouring

After such an exhilirating night of doubting and re-doubting these thoughts, I consulted some girlfriends for their pair of listening ears and the string of wisdom words. Thanks for all knocking some sense and those comforting pillar to lean on. Its ironic how I was once her avid blog reader and we became friends. Knowing she found love with her very own bestfriend is her well-deserved happy ending. Adding to another girlfriend also falls under that category and she too will be entering a new stage in life in 2010. Yes, I am a sucker for blissful ever after especially when they are people who matters most.

Picture credits to my bestfriend, Mamat for the editting (and cropping Din's out of the picture) and giving the title "I had my eyes on you". You made me blushed for a moment. I have my eyes on you too for being the bestest I can ever wish for!

As mind boggling as it is, I had my fair share of sentiments whenever we meet the eyes. It's filled with joy and laughter in his presence. It's like we can have hours and hours of blabberings on the phone or go out from when the sunrise till the sunset. Is that a possibility that love is right before my eyes and I have failed to realize his genuine existence. Or past love experience have taken a negative toll on me. As much as I couldn't bare to hurt myself again, I'll never do the same to the opposite gender. Cause I know how tormenting it is.

If only you would fill me in to erase this prolong uncertainty, it won't made me this fragile. It's like anytime I may fall off a cliff. And I had my dream translated by Nurul earlier today. That "getting bitten by a snake" thingy was a tale sign someone is meeting their match. It may be my brother whose getting engage in weeks time or one of my prayer getting a nod. Darling, about your dream don't think too much about it. You have your exam and stay focus okay? We'll have our girly session when it's over. Date me out real soon. Miss you hor! =)

In everyday of my passing life, I never fail to be on bended knees to the one that holds the faith and knows it all. Through those daily prayers I recited in wishful hope he hears and answers. Love is totally an overwhelming feeling and making decision hastily won't possibly solve this matter of the heart. Not one, not two but three and its not something I am proud of. Cause love is never selfish and I leave it to Almighty to walk me to that path, for my own fairytale to start.

Insyallah.

2008-11-21T23:42:00.002+08:00

*// Matter of the heart

Love a word so cliche yet, I thank you for this song that you dedicated to me. For everything we have been through all these years, this song truly made me brawling like a baby. The whole night it gave butterflies-fluttering-effect in my stomach. You made me angry with all the fugly wrinkles on my face and the next minute, you swept me off my feet. I was having bad vibes all day and you instil right sentiments on me. You know me too well and you will probably always have that spell on me. My heartfelt appreciation but still, questions still lingers. When you call me "cinta", does the word comes with a meaning? I am losing the understanding of that word when its used many a times without an ulterior motive.

Tersadar didalam sepiku
Setelah jauh melangkah
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Tanpamu tiada berarti
Tak mampu lagi berdiri
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekapan tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semua kesalahanku
Kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

".. You know you are in love when you see the world in her eyes and her eyes everywhere in the world .." - I want to be that girl.

2008-11-21T19:20:00.002+08:00

*// Contentment

Upon hearing that tragic news from him I decided to pay him a visit. After what just happened to me, that's the exact reoccurence to him. Getting knock down by a taxi and getting dragged on the road. Thank Allah! It wasn't that serious as per him. He insisted of wanting to fetch me but, I denied and instead we end up meeting at a fountain in front of his block. Even being in that condition still think of what to wear. It's just void deck lah for god sake! *chuckles* Yet, those bad grazes and deep wounds were nothing mild to me. And, seeing him limping his way to me just set my senses to little emotional. When we bidded goodbye, he gave me "that look" but I persistent not to turn and continue walking away.

Dear Aizam,
This is not your first bike accident and I hate to see this happening time and time again. You're too precious hence, I can never imagine myself without you. Without your endearing smile and those times when we just sat along the street of Orchard many a times for a heart-pouring session. You know my disapproval on your ideology of riding and I appreciate your thoughts of not bringing it while you're out with me. Therefore, please (and I meant really please) do take extra caution on the road. My silent prayers always kept for you too. Get well soon, babe!

I may never come close to being a celebrity or whatsoever but, I feel lucky to be having a personal hairstylist whom I have consulted a few times. His magic touches to my too volume hair is really astounding. As much as he looking forward for the next appointment, I am just excited as you too. Even with me rushing for time and you having to speed up to get me done, you never fail to impress me with your skills. Thanks Andy for making apple juice, adoring Pussycat Dolls, gossiping about Rihanna and most importantly, the superb hairdo.

It has been eons ago ever since I last go to Ladies Night for that loathe to the outrageous amount of "Minahs" in the club vicinity on those particular nights. But, Thumper truly changed my perception and I won't mind paying another visit. No unsightful clubbers and a dope dancefloor just nice to keep us pumping despite it's left with me and Dida. She being a darling as she is, entertained my lunatic moves. While Adik became our bodyguard for the day and we create our new signature pose. Thank you for the fabulous Thursday.

We were given coupons for our free drinks yet, without flaunting our charms we got ourselves four free drinks (without having to use any of the coupons) to our own astonishment. Perhaps a positive sign having an all-Malay bartenders there. And, I have to compliment their tossing skill is really impressive. Oh boy! A particular one of them really caught my blurry self, flat down. Thank you to all of you entertainers of all due respect.

Me: May I have three cokes please?
Bartender: Long or short "cock" for you? (I was still oblivious of his words)
Me: Short would be okay.
Bartender: Ouhhhhhh... (With that face, I then realize his sense of humour)

Happy TGIF!

P.S. Thanks again bestie for being my life savior again and enduring my craving for Cheese Fries all the way at Simpang Bedok. Never lock me in the car alone again, please? =)

P.P.S. My darlings are in Bintan and the other couple in Phuket, have a smashing good time and take good care hor! We'll catch up soon, shall we?

2008-11-20T01:16:00.001+08:00

*// Disturbed.

Note: This written entry does not intend to arise any assumptions (cause you always hallucinate I write about you) and no, I am not talking about you. Cause I don't mind and you don't matter.

This blogger here has been Little Miss Cranky for a few days now. If anyone would step on her tail anytime soon, it will definitely break into a nasty catfight! At this crucial period I am still keeping mummed over two massive crisis for that matter. It may get tad too personal but hey, this is my personal online space. Either say comforting words or don't bother wasting your time scrutinizing through every words that I penned down. Maybe gloating over my misery gives you pleasure but, for now I couldn't care less. Laugh to your heart content, okay?

For somebody to boast and badly craved for a happy ending with the other half, I am furious for the matter that words speak louder than your actions. Getting engaged makes you a step closer to that so-called grand wedding affair but, being penniless is a different issue altogether. You start being a beggar asking or even worse extort for money. If you can only spare a little thought for the people that gave you that money unwillingly, you'll realize that a supposingly joyous occasion may turn ugly. In the first place, why a big hoo-haa when you well can't afford it?

What turned me to being so adamant is when my bank account being intrude by my own kin. It's a joint account - I am aware of that. But, that doesn't give you the authority to swindle my hard earn savings to your personal advantage. Silence doesn't means approval cause you know when I start my bi*chy talks, you'll hate me even more! First it was the case of yours that I paid a hefty sum of S$7000+ to save your pathetic a*s. Now comes another. I wish I can just kick your annoying self goodbye but, I ain't that heartless right? I'll eat grass, walk my way to work and stay under the bridge if that's what you're deriving at!

At this point of time, I wish Paman is a bachelor like before so I can just pop by his abode and have him cuddle me like a baby while I rant my heart out. Or bring me out for a midnight walk at the park and those gazing the starts at Bedok Jetty. When tears start pouring endlessly, just a wise sentence from him makes this misery seems vague. He has been the best confidante ever - a friend, father or even brother. Even though he said nothing change but, he owns a family now. I got to give that personal space for him. Can I just say nothing is hurting me? Sigh! And, yes things do change. Like it does now.