*// Of rain nor shine

As my head was sunk to the brimming workload, I hurried so as to be Dee's companion. This darling of mine has a checkup at SGH to attend and I couldn't bare let her be alone. And, it's a good way to catchup after not meeting for the longest time. All my praises to Allah as it wasn't a serious symptoms. However, a day surgery is very crucial to determine her credibility for a future pregnancy (currently, she's so obsessed with babies). But, just so you know my silent prayers always chanted for you.

*// State of surreal

Turning 22 years young is a nerve-wrecked. Never I expect it came too soon without me lookin forward to it. It made me ponder about this and that. I guess it's better left unsaid than creates unruly speculations. When people say that, "The person you love is the person that tend to hurt you the most" - I second that statement. To pluck up that courage again was never an easy task. I'm learning to swallow no matter how bitter it may be and smile with a heavy heart. Cause having you here has always been a blessing.

Since it was my 22nd, I get to celebrate it for 22 days, they claimed. It's never a wild-out party or booze till you drop but, it's more of the time-spent. I've been having dinner after dinner day by day with friends to my utmost contentment. 25th May was a nice gurly session with deary Nurul. From sumptous dining at Fig & Olive to having dessert while strolling at Sentosa. Both of us overcomes our individual fear on that day.


Photography with my darling Lucy (that beauty around her neck) on her part to accomplish her mission and Luge was such success to seize my phobia of height, despite the tears during the process. Gosh~! Yet, girlfriends make the world go round you see. I had so much fun and more adventurous activities ahead, for sure.


Thank you so much for every inch of things~! I always love you. =)

*// Whom I call, my own

Growing up has never been complete with this family who knows my darkest past. She was like an elder sister whom I look up to and keep watch over me like a guardian angel. When I get afraid being home alone late at night, I knock on their door for comfort. From pre-school all the way to secondary school it's amazing how we met daily to and fro from school. I still remember lying on the bed with her singing our first song, Lemon Tree and dancing aimlessly on the bed. We shared a common interest in Garfield. She is the ladylike and I'm a total boyish. But like they say, opposite attracts. Those were the days...



Time flies and all I can see now you growing like a beautifully swan, donning in a gorgeous-looking bridal gown on a well decorated dias. It just made memories even fonder. As much as I was looking forward to attend your wedding, I was called on to work. A sincerest apology on my part. But as you know, my silent prayer always recited for your lifelong happiness in a new life called "Marriage". Insyallah.


A blissful start awaiting to unfolds a new chapter in your life. I'm so looking forward for the day you've the mini you. Someone that remains as closed to the heart as caring sustains love. And, that love still remains for you and family. A birthday shoutout to you and Rahman~! Ironically, our birth dates all fell in May subsequently.

Kak Yati, I can never find a replacement or any better sister than you. You're all I ever wanted to be call my own since day one I know you in our growing up days. =)

:.` Care is the ingredient that keep kinship alive despite separation, distance or time `.:

*// Ponder and still pondering

When he gave a surprise call saying he just pull through a trauma, my heart seems uneasy. I skipped lunch as he suddenly appeared at the main gate of my workplace. In a state of haste, I told him to wait as I took some first-aid necessities. As he exposed his wound, my heart halted. I was nursing his open wound when he pull me close and gave me a hug. As he was in his army uniform, I felt a little uneasy but despite the sweat-tinge-smell, it felt so sinfully right. I felt as though I'm home sweet home yet, doubting to the reason only I know.

".. I'm sorry for crying over you because I said I wouldn't. But I didn't promise nor hold my words against it because I knew it would be a promise, I would never be able to keep. Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but even harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do. I rather give up everything for one moment with you than a lifetime of not knowing you. Love that we cannot have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest. And it's something I wish somehow you know .." - DaNceHoL|c

:.` True love leaves a memory no one can steal and a heartache no one can heal `.:

*// Blessed

P.S. The picture above is a little contradicting, I hope you can spot why. =)

*// Deepest gratitude

Knowing what you've been through physically and emotionally
From that nine months of agony, carrying me in you without complains
Enduring the extreme pain and struggle for survival to bring me up
The way you battled on just show how strong-willed you really are
I want to possess that character you have

Even after 22 years under your caring touch
I couldn't explain this feeling I felt for no other person but, you
No matter what I do, I can never repay the sweat you shed
No matter what I do, no one can be as good as you to shelter me from harm
To make me to what I am today

For everything and anything you've done for me
With brimming tears and fragile heart I dedicate my deepest gratitude
Please bring me wherever you go and never left me stranded again
Cause you're the heartbeat that made me breathe
Till the day I die, I spill my heart for you

Only to you I seek solace to wreck and bliss emotions
You're like that gem that add extravagant sparkle to my life
Your love gave warmth deep within my soul which is timeless
For all I know heaven is under your footstep, Momma♥
And being on bended knees I wish the most deserving person
Happy Mother's Day and I love you infinity times, my unsung hero

This song able to set goosebumps all over me and the lyrics set me mum-med:



P.S. There's a first time in everything and today, marks the first torment upon matter of the hearts. I pray Allah will bless this broken road. Thanks Heartshape♥ for being able to make me feel human again. At least I knew, even after being numbed I still do have feelings.

:.` No other love is of greatness compared to a motherly touch to one's child `.:

*// You're still you


Through the darkness I can see your light and you will always shine
I can feel your heart in mine, your face I've memorized
I look up to everything you're cause in my eyes you do no wrong
I've loved you for so long and after all is said and done
You're still you..

Like the sound of silence calling, I hear your voice and suddenly lost in a dream
You say those words and my heart stops beating, I wonder what it means
For a moment, there's no one else alive when you're the one I've always thought of
I feel sheltered in your love, you're where I belong
You're still you..

When you're with me if I close my eyes, there are times I feel like I can fly
This journey that we're on is how far we've come and I celebrate every moment
When you say you love me, you always make me feel this way
In that moment, I know why I'm alive despite that missing puzzle
You're still you..

You walk past me, I can feel your pain despite time changes everything
Although you never ask me to I will still remember you
Through what life put us through in this cruel and lonely world
One truth always stays the same, I've found one love
You're still you..

At times I can't move.
At times I can hardly breathe.

:.` Hearing your voice is like the echoes of our souls are meeting `.:

*// Noble

:.` Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies `.:

*// The life savior

Happy 23rd Babesday dearest, Masilah~!

For aiding me in picking up the broken puzzles, once upon a time,
For offering a warm hug when you know exactly what I needed most,
For lending a listening ear while I whined continously of my sorrows,
For giving your shoulder when I go hysterical over matter of the heart,
I can never thank Allah enough to have crosspathed you in the most crucial period.