Dear diary,

As I encountered a near-accident tragic early this morning, my brain cells died on me. The only thing I remember was the picture of my Mom who is still sick at the back of my blank mind. I managed to chant silent prayers under my gasping breathe to keep me strong as I need to be there for her. It was a tragic morning and I was meaning to tell you about it, Heartshape when I made an oversea call just to reach you. But, words just can't come out right and that I instantly felt soothe upon hearing your voice. Alhamdulilah, I am still here and appreciate the value of life even more beneath all odds.

On a happier note, a very close kin got hitched. We grew up together and I owe my life to this family for being my caretaker ever since I stepped to this world. I was born in an imperfect picture to begin with but, they were one of the many that painted colors to my black and white life back then. I never missed this for the world but, the only thing I wasn't anticipating was the similar questions that were thrown at me countless times that day. I'm sure you'll get the drift especially when the 'makciks' gather and began chatterings. My biggest nightmare was when they began matchmaking session for me.